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All For Believing – 11
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“I didn’t say you can’t take care of your self. I just.. I knew seeing her would hurt you.”
“Oh but you didn’t know that sleeping with her would hurt me, right?”
Another “OH SHIT” moment. I look at Bette who is totally hurt by what I said. I don’t take my angry eyes off of her until she sighs and turns around to leave the room.
“I think you better go to sleep.”
She closes the door behind her and I throw myself on the bed still fully clothed. I stare at the ceiling and random thoughts run through my mind. I stop when I remember Helena. I sit up and look at the closed door. Why am I acting like this? Bette saw Helena at the center knowing that she was there for me and she didn’t flip like I did. I get up and go to the living room where Bette is sitting on the couch surfing through TV channels. I kneel down in front of her and try to put my arms around her waist but she stops me by putting both of her hands on my shoulders. I look at her with pleading eyes.
“Baby, I’m sorry.”
“Tina. I really need you to understand that everything that happened to us because of that woman is history. I moved on and I need you to move on too.”
“I know. I’m trying”
“And you really should stop punishing me. I can’t take it anymore. Reminding me of how much I hurt you and shoving my mistakes into my face all the time makes me angry with myself. I love you so much that it pains me a lot..”
“I love you too. I’m sorry. I really am.”
“I I really can’t keep tip-toeing around you all the time. Trying to do everything right and fear being anything but perfect. This is not the life I want to live. I need you to give me some space to breath. To be who I am. I don’t want my every move to be counted and judged every single fucking day.”
I get off of the floor and sit next to her before putting my arms around her as she starts sobbing softly. I caress her hair and kiss her head trying to soothe her while feeling totally guilty for the pain I caused her now. I think she did really suffer as much as I did while we were apart. We didn’t get back together to keep on hurting one another. It really is time to stop and move on.
“You know, I would really hate myself if I lost you again.”
She turns her face and smiles at me with those tear-filled puppy eyes that break my heart whenever I see them. I feel a strong urge to make up for all the pain I caused her, but at this moment all I can do is kiss her lightly on the lips and keep her in my arms. We stay there in silence for a while before she pats my leg and gets up.
“Do you still want to sleep?”
“Frankly, I’m starving.”
“That’s what I thought. Let’s order something.”
“Let’s cook something.”
A grin forms on Bette’s face. She always loved it when we cooked together. She’ll have a reason to have me put on the apron she gave me on one of our anniversaries. Damn! How I love it when I’m right. I laugh as she responds with:
“I’ll bring the aprons.”
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Glad that Tina got herself back on track, she was being just a tad unreasonable. It is after all “a smalll, small world”.
Love this story. I just wish IC would have this kind of dialogue between Bette and Tina on the show. My one wish for S3 is for Tina and Bette to have one scene in the therapist’s office where they let it all hang out and start to mend their relationship. I know it won’t happen, but that’s my wish. Keep writing! Can’t wait for more.
Damn you scared me. Glad they talk and work thing out, now let see what’s next, thanks!
Bette is wiser than Tina. She didn’t say anything about Helena,yet minutes after Tina get angry about Candace,Its not fair. thanks
So sorry about your computer crashing. But thanks for the great chapter! It was a perfect balance of drama and happy. :)
I am still in Denialville and hoping you come back to this story. I will always be wanting B & T together….
you scared me for a moment woman..lol..im glad they were able to talk and work fast their insecurities..thats the way it should be..maybe they can spend sometime alone in a little vacation…cant wait for more thanks :o)
Hope they do something like this in S3
Three chapters? I cry for you too. But you have to learn from Nikolai Ostrovsky who wrote ‘How the Steel Was Tempered’ (I guess BTF knows him better =P). His first draft was missing on the way from the publishing company. He had to re-write it from the very beginning. Hoho, I’m babbling. Don’t be upset. We’re all here for you. =D
That was a really nice chapter. Just enough angst but ending with the right amount of humour, well done! Can’t wait to see what you write next.
you scared me too…not cool, i think i just lost a pound, sweating and nervous…whew..now i’m better…thank for keeping them right on track
it is good to see a story that balances out pancha’s “after loving you”, although i think what IC has done with our girls is more along the lines of another breakup……but as long we can read FF stories where they actually TALK, I will be satisfied, so please keep it up!
Usually if I’m reading something here and something goes wrong I express my thoughts verbally to no one in particular (i.e. “What the hell are they thinking?!”). But after Tina threw the affair in Bette’s face I just dropped my head down and to the right, put my right hand to my forehead, closed my eyes, and sighed. I really love Tina on the show because she’s so sweet, loving, and adorable, but damn, every post-Candyass Tina I encounter in Fanfiction Land carries grudges worse than anyone I’ve ever known, including myself. Maybe that happened in S2 and I was too busy trying to avoid looking at Mark to notice. lol
Great chapter.
:D always makes me smile :D .. not the :) smile of course.. cuz u dont like that.. :D :jester: hehe.. i think u wont have to run from amanda after the way u fixed things there.. :D im sure she’ll forgive u for bringing C into things.. :D
Fa6, maybe I am psycho…I mean psychic….yes psychic :) anyways, I try not to read you mind, but I really enjoy reading deeper into this story, more so than others. so… onto my comment for this chappy… Great writing! hmmm, sometimes you lead me to wonder where you are going with Tina. I’m glad that Candace nor Bette did anything regretable, but Tina? she was so angry over something so uncontrolable. I think she needs to let go and relax a little. I’m not sure what the Helena in your story is like, but maybe she needs to talk with her to get some closure and remove that part of her life. possibly get that chip off her shoulder. And what’s with Tina’s double standards?? Isn’t she the one who not minutes earlier, tried to keep Bette from seeing Helena?? Bette was soooo good about letting go and not even asking tina about Helena, then going on as if nothing happened, then Tina freaks out at the sight of Candace. I would be upset, but I think she went a wee bit over board. Tina has got to learn to control her reactions…. count to 10 or something! Bette’s trying so hard, and I think if she keeps having to walk on egg-shells, it’s not gonna get any better. like I said before, Tina needs to grow and learn from this mistake as much as bette did and does. If she doesn’t get some counceling, or a deep tissue mass-age or something, she’s gonna wither in the self-pitty mode. sorry about my tina rant….. keep writing. I’ll be reading.
Glad Tina saw how unfair she was to Bette. It’s true..Bette cannot control them running the “Carpenter.” LOL. I’m glad they talked about it and worked through their insecurities. Please continue.
That was soooooooooooo close. Bette’s right, they can’t move forward if Tina won’t let go of the past. They both made mistakes, gotta move on girls. So glad Tina came back out and talked to Bette. That would be nice to see in the fast approaching S3.
Fa6, Happy New Year! So sorry to hear that you’ve had to or will have to retype the 3 chapters. It’s good see that you’ve posted. Now on with the comments. It wasn’t nice of Tina to keep throwing Bette’s mistake in her face every time they have an argument or something they can’t control happens as in this case with Candace. Bette is right, they need to move on. Tina needs to move on. At the same time, I do understand where Tina is coming from. Sometimes, we lash out before thinking through our actions/words and how they would hurt our loved ones. The important thing is that Tina realized her mistake and can see that Bette’s action from earlier was supportive, unlike her own. It is still early and B&T have just started to their journey to heal. Hopefully, with time and open communication, they will have learned from all of their mistakes and learn to trust in each other and be supportve of each other again. Thanks and looking forward to the next one.
too much for me sometimes….tina and bette get it together I cant take it anymore