Carmen P.O.V.

I saw Shane’s jeep pull up and I got more nervous. Was I doing the right thing? Should I have listened to my head instead of my heart? Tina’s advice keep replaying in my head and I knew what I had to do. I had to be honest with Shane and hope that she would show me the same courtesy. I’m laying on our bed I mean her bed, waiting for her to come in so we could talk. She walks in and her back is towards me. I don’t say anything or even move a muscle. She turns around and looks shocked to see me.

Shane: Shit Carm you scared me.

Carmen: Sorry.

I say with my head down. She walks over to me and sits next to me. I look down at the bed that held so many memories of us and I start to get angry at the fact that those memories had to end. I feel myself getting angrier by the second and I think it’s a bad idea to talk to her in here.

Carmen: Can we go in the living room and talk?

Shane: Sure.

She looks perplexed but she follows me anyway.

Carmen: I need to get some things off of my chest.

Shane: Me too. Carmen I love you and I know I fucked up. I can’t even image the pain I put you through but I want you to know that I honestly thought it was for the best.

I look into her eyes and she is so sincere. I have to tell her. I have to tell her the truth.

Carmen: Shane I have something to confess and I am just going to say it and I want you to be silent until I finish.

She nods her head and I feel assured to go on.

Carmen: I was selfish when I accepted your marriage proposal. I should’ve said no to you for so many reasons. You cheated on me, and you weren’t ready to stop running back to Cherie.

Shane: You cheated to Carm.

Carmen: You said you weren’t going to interrupt.

Shane: I’m sorry.

Carmen: Dana had just died and you were grieving that’s why you asked me. You might not think of it that way but that was the reason. I knew this yet I still accepted your proposal. Everyday up to the wedding I felt a sense of dread but everything moved so fast and our friends did so much that I just went with you. Don’t get me wrong I love you with all my heart but I should’ve just let our relationship remain the way it was. I ran away because I waited for you to tell me yourself you weren’t ready but you showed up in her car and the pain was too much to bear. To know that you would always flee to her at the first sign of trouble.