Tina was looking at Bette. She looked like she was asleep, her arm on Tinas belly, her leg on top of Tinas. But Tina knew Better. After seven years sleeping with Bette she could tell that she was awake, just pretending to be asleep.

Why would she do that? Tina was trying to find out why Bette was pretending to be sleeping. She was studying her face, almost buried behind her curly hair. Tina could not stop herself from moving a lock of hair from Bettes face. God, she has missed that face!. Tinas finger was drawing Bettes back, she wanted to touch those softy spots, shed feel her ribs, Bette was so thin!, Tina caressed the trace of Bettes ribs drawn on her back. Tina felt Bette shivering from her touch and decided that it was better to know than to imagine.

“Bette, baby, I know you are awake..”
“You do?” Bette was whispering, still her eyes closed.

Tina giggled, caressing Bettes back.
“Yes I do, Bette.”

Bette sighing deeply turned around. Her naked body fully exposed to Tinas stare. She gasped at the sight, saying nothing.
Bette finally opened her eyes, looking at Tina.

I didnt want to open my eyes and realize that its been just a marvellous dream T

Tina moved to lie closer to Bette. They were facing each other, almost touching. Bette was scare, not sure what to say or do as Tina was not smiling. She was looking at Bette tenderly but with a look new to Bette. It was scary for Bette to realize that she no longer could read Tinas reactions, Tinas looks.

Tina moved her hard and traced Bettes face, she was trying to gain all the time, all the memories back.
Bette sighed and in a whisper, not wanting Tina to stop said,
T, will you have dinner with me tonight?

Tina looked up from Bettes chin, where she had her finger, to Bettes eyes.

I cant

Bettes face clouded. She didnt know what to say. Her worst nightmares were becoming real, she thought she was going to cry right there. But then Tina moved her finger and pushing Bettes chin up added,

But wed have dinner tomorrow if youre free

Bette closed her mouth, nodding, trying to stop a single tear she was feeling trying to escape her already tired eyes.

Tina smiled. Bette had her eyes closed again, wanting to feel Tinas body close to hers, Tinas smell, Tinas warmth. She was trying to capture all those memories again. She was still scare of facing the real Tina. The new Tina. The Tina that took her body up and down the night before. The new Tina that still hasnt talk about the past. The new Tina whose moves were new to Bette. But Bette could still remember her hands. Behind that new force that was driven Tina, Bette found her old tender sweet hands. Behind last nights passion Bette could feel Tinas old touch. Tinas tenderness, Tinas sweetness, Tinas heart. The old Tina was in all the words Tina whispered in Bette ear, in the way she looked at her when she kissed her at the alley, at the back of the club. Bette saw the old Tina in the way she undressed her when they got home, in the way she kissed her goodnight and above all in the way she held her when once in bed, hugged her till she fall asleep.
Bette was scare of this new Tina. This new Tina knew what she wanted and how to get it, and was no afraid to show it. Bette was not sure she could be good enough for this new Tina. She was afraid that Tina could see she was not enough for her.

Tina was watching Bette. Studying her face, her body. She had her eyes close again. She was holding her hand tightly, like she was afraid to let her go. Tina removed her hand from Bettes and caressing her hip, caressing up her body she leaned forward.

Bette I have to go
Bettes eyes opened in such a speed that she thought theyd fall off.

What?… I mean.

Tinas kiss on Bettes lips stopped her questioning. She didnt want to ask, was afraid of the answer. Tina jumped out of the bed and walked to the bathroom. Bette watched her walked away, enjoying her beautiful naked body, so slim, so firm. Bette noticed how much weight Tina lost in the months they were apart. But, were they together now? Bette didnt know, she didnt know what last night meant to Tina. She was afraid to ask but she decided that she needed to if she wanted to move forward.
She walked to the bathroom and she was going to enter when she thought it better. Knocking on the door she whispered,
T, can we talk?

Before answering, Tina opened the door of the bathroom and looked at Bette who was not aware of being naked, in the middle of the hall.

Its a bit difficult to talk having you naked in front of me Bette.

To Bettes relief Tina was smiling while she answered. Bette could read Tinas smile. It was real, it was teasing.

Dont move, Ill be right back.

While Bette run back to the bedroom Tina walked to the kitchen. She put the coffee maker on and looked for her purse.
Bette appeared wearing shorts and a t-shirt. Tina smiled to her, pointing the pool. Bette smiled back and followed Tinas steps.
Tina sat down on the pool steps and Bette sat on her side. They were looking at the clear water, watching her feet in it.

T, what was last night, where are we?

Tina didnt look at Bette. She didnt want to talk, she was not ready, not yet.

Bette (Tina looked up from the water to meet Bettes eyes), do you trust me?

With all my heart T Bettes words were out of her mouth almost before Tina finished her question.

Bette, I dont know where we are or what last night means. I want to see you again, that I know but I dont know what that means or if It means that I want you back. I am not there yet, Bette. All I know is that I need to follow my instincts now.

Bette was nodding. She didnt know what to think about the answer Tina was giving her. It was not clearing her doubts but she was sure Tina was being honest and she was willing to follow Tinas wishes. She just wanted Tina back.

Tina smiled again, caressing Bettes arm for a few seconds, in silence. Then she stood up and looking down at Bette said.
There is coffee in the kitchen for you Bette.
Bette smiled, nodding. Tina leaned down and kissed Bette on the lips, it wasnt a passionate kiss it was tender and caring.

I will call you tomorrow, ok?. With that Tina walked inside, ready to go
Ok was all Bette was able to answer.

As Tina was getting to her car she was dialling her cell.

Hey, will you have dinner with me tonight?