“Do what, exactly?” Bette asked in even tones. I’m calling Matthew right after this.

“Umm… I drive one of his antique sports cars after my lessons in the school’s car. Matthew’s outfitted it all kinds of safety features, mom. And the driving instructor has been guiding and teaching me how to handle the car properly ….”

“How long has this been going on, Thomas?” Bette cut in, her voice becoming a little bit more censuring.

“A couple of months,” he answered quietly. “I was planning to surprise Angie … and you and mom T.”

“Who else was in on this?” Bette asked, with an edge.

“Dan and …” TJ started to respond, swallowing drily. His surprise was suddenly sounding less brilliant than when he first thought of it.

“Dan??!!!” Bette asked, her tone was full of surprise. I am definitely calling him next.

“Yes … since I started seeing him six months ago, he and I have been talking about my memories of being in a speeding car and ….” TJ paused, and swallowed again.

“And?” Bette prompted him, more softly this time.

“And I thought aloud to him one day that maybe, if I acquired the right skills to drive a fast car, I’d gain the confidence to handle them, and the idea wouldn’t feel so daunting anymore. Or else, it could help me deal with those memories.”

When Bette didn’t respond, he added quickly, “And then I thought that if I could show Angie that I could handle a car like that, she would be less anxious about me, or at least see that I can handle myself around things that, um… maybe make both of us a little bit fearful.”

“Oh, sweetie,” Bette answered quietly. They fell quiet again.

“I’m sorry, mom. I should have talked to you, first,” TJ said, his voice full of regret.

Bette sighed audibly. “Yes, honey.   You should have.” She paused. “You know I’ll have to tell mom T.”

“I know.”

“And she won’t be happy about this.”

It was his turn to sigh. “No, I don’t think she’ll be happy.”

Then Bette surprised him when she asked, “Are you any good?”

“Wha-a-a-t?”

“Are you any good? Driving Matthew’s car?”

He stammered, “Umm… I-I-I … think so. That’s what the instructor says. That’s the only reason why I feel comfortable about taking Angie for a spin on Sunday.”