“That’s not what I mean Shane…” She said frustrated. “They are rules… rules you have to follow; that’s how we live in this world…. but you’ve broken each one of them…” She said to me; serious about the talk but I couldn’t be serious. Her words never going to change my mind; and soon she’ll find out.

“Are you going to turn me in…?” I played with her.

“I’m serious Shane… aren’t you afraid of getting caught; I mean if something happened to you…

“Nothing is going to happen to me… nothing; the authorities can’t touch me… hell; I’m invincible to them… the only threats are the other families…” I cut her off. She was quiet after what I said; I knew she was still worried and I didn’t know what else to say to her.

“You talk about all this as if it is all a game… like a single life doesn’t matter to you…” She said sadly.

“It’s a dangerous game; I guess you can call it that… but you matter to me; you very much matter to me Carmen…” I said to her. She looked at me and smile; I think she was happy that she heard it from me. She laid her head on me; on my chest and I played with her hair.

“Maybe we can run away… from all of this and start fresh; go where nobody can find us…” She said in a dreamy tone.

“Somebody will… somebody always will; it just takes time…” I said and crushed her little dream. “Besides all of the nasty stuff… you’ll see the fun side of it…” I said. She looked at me like I am a complete nut case with creased eyebrows; I guess you have to be some sort of a nut case to survive in this business.

“Fun side?” She asked; in her head she was saying “Fun Side?? What fun side?? There is no fun side… you psychopath…”

“Yes… there’s a fun side with everything you do… and with what I do comes with great wealth and power…” I said; I was suddenly hungry for it.

“… and great danger…” She quipped in.