“To stay in the room…” I said to her sheepishly.

“And what did you do…” She asked me again; she loosens her tie; and ran a hand through her slick hair.

“I didn’t stay in our room…” I said to her.

 “Carmen…”

“Shane…” We said it together and stopped. I smiled but she was still serious.

“Next time… please do as I say…” She said to me.

“What if I don’t want to…” She tilts her head at me; and took another step until we were close enough to kiss each other.

“Anything could’ve gone wrong… Jimmy’s men could’ve found that he was here; and it’d be a blood bath…” She said slowly; her words are making me hot really.

“But nothing happened…” I said to her.

“For now… yeah; nothing happened… please; I don’t want to argue with you… please do as I say next time… it’s for your own good…” She said.

“I already have a body guard and now I have to stay in a room every time you tell me too? What’s next Shane??” I asked her; angry and in love with this being in front of me.

“I want you safe Carmen…” She said to me. “I’m trying my best here… to keep you safe…” She said. But I wanted to win; I want to have the last say.

“Is this how it’s going to be from now on?” I asked her.

“I guess so yeah…” She said lazily; I was getting angrier at her. She’s taking this lightly.

“Oh; you guess so?? You guess so?? What am I to you Shane??” I started to throw my words at her without thinking; she looked desperate… wanting to get out of the argument; but I continued on. “You know what… I don’t think I can do this… I don’t think I can live my life like this…” I blurted out; it was my deepest of thoughts and it came out of me. She was stunned.

I started to turn but I felt her stopped me; it was rough and she pushed me back against the wall. “Are you going to blow my face too Shane… just like you did to Kensington… huh??” I asked her. She creased her brows at me… not believing what I just said to her.

“What’s wrong with you?” She said quietly. I didn’t know what to say… I don’t know what’s the problem is my self. Maybe I’m the problem.

“I asked you… if you can’t accept me then I’ll go and you won’t have to see me no more… but you chose me; are you going to go back on your own words? Are you going to leave me now?” She got me. The truth is; I think the world of her… but the world of her is so wrong and right that it fucked my head up.

“Tough girl like you… I’m sure you can handle it…” I pushed her further with my words.

“I can’t believe you…” She hissed me; her jaw clenched… she’s holding back her anger. This is too much; I cant back out from it… but I really want to. She let go of her hands and took a few steps backwards.

“I’m sorry… I… I take it back…” I said. She let out a heavy sigh and placed her hands on her hips. We’re such kids with our feelings; it’s pathetic. “Like I said… I’d go down to hell with you…”

“I can’t go through a day doing what I do if I don’t see your face Carmen; don’t you get it… I need you…”