Tina has a meltdown.

Bette and Tina had been together nine months now, six months living together. Their lives were in a routine that they both loved.

Some times when Bette had a show coming up she worked late, sometimes Tina was on call, or over booked at her office she worked late. But most of evenings they were together and every two weeks was date night, come ***** or high water. They started it when three weeks went by and they had barely seen each other, they made a pact. Neither was allowed to cancel, now discussing work, and no added quests. Another must was always kiss goodnight and good morning no matter what. They were very happy, so far no major blow ups, sure they had little arguments now and then, but mostly they got along well, they were in love.

They still hung out with Alice, Shane, Kit, and Dana at least weekly. They all had lunch, or dinner or at the least coffee. Tina and the gang were good friends now, they were considered family.

The week had been especially hectic for Tina, she had been on call for 48 hours and then today one of her patients, a six year old boy named Ryan Hunter was hospitalized again with leukemia. Hed been in remission for a year. Tina had known him since her intern days, he was a ray of sunshine no matter what test they threw at him. He was a real trooper, no complaints, a few tears of course, but always smiling, always.

Tina was at the hospital seeing Ryan and his family. She going to tell Mr. & Mrs. Hunter that Ryans lab was not improving, it wasnt looking good. This is the worst part of being a doctor, telling parents that they were trying everything but nothing was working.

After telling them and checking on Ryan, the smiling child melted her heart. Tina went to the chapel and prayed. Surely god didnt need Ryan as much as his parents did. She prayed for this and for her skill as doctor to help her though this.

Bette was having a typical day at the gallery, temperamental artists ***** and trying to find new bookings. Bette left her office, she called Tina on her way out the door.

Tina: Hello, Dr. Kennard?
Bette: Hey baby, hows it going? Bette knew about Ryan but she didnt know how serious it was, Tina was not letting her in, she wouldnt talk about it with Bette.
Tina: Hey baby, no change. Are you on your way home?
Bette: Yeah, Ill pick up dinner if you want.
Tina: Ok, I should be home in about an hour.
Bette: Great, T, I love you.
Tina: I know you do, I love you too. Bye.

Bette was worried but shrugged it off to Tinas being tired and stressed. Bette stopped and got some of Tinas favorite lasagne and wine. She got her roses and lavender bath salts. She was going to help Tina relax tonight.

Tina came in and Bette met her at the door with a glass of wine. Bette took her bag and jacket and laid them aside. She took Tinas hand and led her to the bathroom. Tina stopped and pulled Bette to her.

Tina; Baby just hold me please, hold me.
Bette: holding her and kissing her hair and rubbing her back. Ill hold you T, forever, Ill hold you.

Tina pulled back and looked in the bathroom, it was lit with candles everywhere and a bubble bath that smelled wonderful. A dozen roses sat beside the tub in a vase. Tina turned and looked at Bette.

Tina: This is beautiful , Thank you.
Bette: Now you go get in and relax, dinner is in the oven when you get out. Youve got to eat T, did you eat today?
Tina; Mmm, I dont think so, lots of coffee count?
Bette: no . Bette kissed her to leave
Tina: Join me?
Bette: Not this time sweety you need to relax. Bette reached over and turned on the CD player and left Tina in the bathroom.

Tina went to the roses and took the card to read it.

T,
Youre my love , my life and Im here for you, anytime.
Your pain is my pain. Relax, let it out, talk to me when your ready, I can listen , I can hold you and I can love you. Remember this always.
All my love, B

Tina climbed in the tub and let the bubbles and wine do their magic, when Bette came in thirty minutes later, Tina was asleep in the tub. Bette gently woke her and helped her out of the water, wrapping her in a thick, soft terry robe. She led her to the bedroom.

Bette: Stay her and sit, Ill get dinner.
Tina leaned up against the headboard, smiling at the way Bette was taking care of her. Bette returned with a tray of food. Salad, lasagne, and bread. Water and a glass of milk for Tina. Tina loved a glass of milk before bed.

Tina: Baby this is so sweet. Will you join me?
Bette: Now that Ill do, Im starving. She leaned over and kissed Tinas forehead.

They ate together and shared small talk. Tina still wouldnt talk about Ryan. Bette let it go, she would talk when she was ready, she hoped.

After eating Bette put things away and cleaned up the mess. Tina was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling when Bette went back to the bedroom.

Bette: T, you need to get some sleep.
Tina: umm, okay.
Bette took off Tinas robe and pulled down the bed for her to get in. She got in beside her and spooned next to her.
Tina turned to her and touched her face.
Tina: Baby thank you for the bubble bath, the dinner, and the roses.
Bette: Your welcome.
Tina: Bette I need you tonight, I need to feel alive, please make love to me.
Bette: T, your exhausted, sleep first okay?
Tina: No, please I want you to make me feel something, make me feel, nobody can do that for me like you. Please. She kissed Bette slowly.
Bette: Come here baby. Bette rolled on top of her and slowly kissed her , touching her lips. She kissed her eyes and down the side of her face, down to the hollow of her neck. Her lips making a trail across Tinas collar bone and shoulders, down to the valley between her *****. Bettes hands were moving up and down Tinas body, caressing, lightly touching, and teasing her.

Bette looked into Tinas eyes with love, Tina looked back with lust and longing.
Bette: I love you, Im here for you always T.
Tina: I love you Bette, I want you to love me.
Bette moved her lips to Tinas *****, moving her body to the side slightly to give her hand access to Tinas hot wet core. She sucked and licked at her ***** one then the other. Tina was moaning and her hips were moving up to encourage Bette to enter her. Bette obliged, she entered her with two then three fingers, Tinas rhythm was frantic and fast, Bette was thrusting to comply, then Tina stopped suddenly and pulled Bette up to her eager mouth, kissing her. Then she whispered in Bettes ear, ***** me Bette, taste me please.

Bette slid down and took Tina in her mouth, pulling her hips closer with her hands under her *****. Tinas hands were pushing Bette face into her. Bettes tongue was moving in and out furiously as Tinas hips wanted her to. Bettes hand was rubbing her *****. Then Bette felt Tina tensing up she pushed her fingers inside her and she sucked on her *****, holding her as Tina climaxed hard and intense, she cried out.
Tina: Bette, Oh god, Beeettteee, oooh bbaaaby yyyessss!!!!
Bette held her, holding her, feeling the shudders quake through Tinas body. Finally spent and relaxed Tina fell back pulling Bette up. She kissed Bette and Tina started crying.

Bette: T, whats wrong?, what can I do? Please let me help you.
Tina pulled her close, sobbing into her chest. Bette held her.
Tina: Just hold me baby, love me and hold me.
Bette: Ill always hold you, Ill always love you.

Soon after Bette felt Tinas even breathing and she relaxed in her arms. Bette knew she was sleeping. She didnt move she knew Tina was exhausted and needed sleep more than anything, so Bette held her until morning. Bette fell asleep herself hoping Tina would let her help her at some point.

The next morning tina woke up and got around. She kissed Bette as she was leaving, Bette was still in bed.

Tina: Have a good day baby, I love you.
Bette grabbed her hand as she was walking away.
Bette: Where are you off to so early? Its only seven a.m.
Tina: Ive got to go to the hospital before the office. Ill call you later.
Bette kissed her hand. I love you t, you know where to find me if you need me. Ill call you later.

Later that day Bette still hadnt heard from Tina. She had called and left her voice mail, and she called and left messages with Sara and Angie. They said she was going in and out to the office and hospital. Around four that afternoon Bette received a call from Sara.

Bette: Sara, hi whats wrong?
Sara: Bette I thought I should call, Ryan Hunter passed away about two this afternoon. Tina called us and we have some one covering for her here at the office, but she wont answer her phone and well since you havent been with her when this has happened, I felt I needed to warn you of what she goes thru.
Bette: Oh god Sara, Im so sorry, how can I get to her, is she okay?
Sara: Thats what Im telling you Bette she disappears, she takes a loss like this personally. She is always okay in a day or two, but the first day she takes it so hard. No one can find her. I know she needs you.

Bette: any idea where she might go?
Sara: No, weve looked at the hospital and here in the building, we thought you might know.
Bette: Ill go look, I have a few ideas. Thanks Sara for calling me, Ill call you when I find her.

Bette hung up and told Kim she was leaving. Bette was so worried she could think of two places besides home Tina might be. First she went by the house just in case Tina wasnt answering the phone. No sign of her there. Bette then went to their favorite spot on the beach, no luck, she wasnt there either. She then headed to the scenic overlook of the city, she knew Tina liked to go there before they met and she had taken Bette there a time or two since, she said it calmed her.

Bettes heart stopped for a second, she saw Tinas SUV. She pulled up beside it and got out to find Tina. She saw her sitting on the ground her knees pulled up to her chest, she was sobbing hugging her knees.

Bette went up to her slowly, not wanting to startle her, she spoke softly.
Bette: Tina? T? Baby?
Tina looked up to Bette and continued crying. Bette went to her and put her arms around her. Tina pushed her away.

Tina: Leave me alone. I dont deserve you Bette, Im a failure. I lost a child today.
Bette: Baby, its not your fault. Youre a great doctor Tina, your patients love you.
Tina: Then why did this happen? An innocent child Bette. A baby, gone, a family destroyed.
Bette: T, you have always said, God has a plan, he needed Ryan with him, its his plan, its gods will. Nothing was your fault.
Tina: Oh Bette, Im so sorry for him, and his family.
Bette put her arms around her and this time Tina let her.
Bette: Im here baby, let it out, let it go, Ill hold you, Im right here.

Bette held her, they sat, Tina cried and cried, until she was out of tears. Eventually Tina turned to Bette.
Tina: Take me home, please.
Bette helped her up and took her to the car.
Bette: Ill have Alice bring me back to get your car.

Bette took Tina home and put her to bed. She called Sara and told her she had Tina and she was resting. Sara cancelled the next day on Tinas schedule and told Bette she would call later to check on her. Bette then called Alice and filled her in, they went and got Tinas car while she was still sleeping.

When Bette got back she laid down beside Tina and held her. Every time Bette moved Tina pulled her closer, Bette let her and it wasnt long before she was asleep with her.

She wanted to be there when she woke or
cried out. Bette wanted to be Tinas port in a storm, her lifeline, she would stay with her until she woke, holding her and making sure Tina knew she was worthy of her love.

Finally at nine the next morning Bette got up and called Kim to tell her she wasnt coming in today. Tina was still sleeping. Bette got showered and dressed and kept herself busy doing some work from home. She checked on Tina every fifteen minutes or so. Around one Bette was making herself a sandwich when Tina came in to the kitchen. Bette stopped and went to her.

Bette: Tina, hey baby, sit down Ill get you a sandwich. Bette sat her at the table.
Tina: Im not really hungry, something to drink would be good.
Bette: Sure, juice, water?
Tina: Juice. Bette got her a glass of orange/pineapple juice that Tina loved.
Tina: Thank you.
Bette cut her sandwich in half and put half of it in front of Tina.
Bette: Tina you have to eat, well just in case your hungry.
Tina: looking at Bette confused. Why are you home?
Bette: I called in and told Kim I was working at home today.
Tina: To be with me?
Bette: Yes, to be here for you, to take care of you.
Tina: sighing. Bette Im sorry, Ill be okay, you can go to your office if you want.
Bette: No baby, Im staying here, I want to, I want to help you through this.

Tina took Bettes hand and kissed it.
Tina: I need to be alone, Ill be okay.
Bette: Tina come here. Bette led her to the living room to the sofa.

Bette: Tina youve gone through this before alone because you didnt have some one who loves you, who feels your pain. I would do anything to lift the burden from you, anything. Grieving is a process you have to deal with, but you dont have to deal with it alone anymore. Im here, Im willing to love you and console you, thats what love is. I cant bear to stand by and watch you like this, let me comfort you.

Tina: she was crying and she hugged Bette to her. She pulled back and took Bettes face in her hands. Bette you are so good, and loving, Im sorry Im acting like this, it hurts so bad you know. Im not use to sharing a burden like this, and thank god I dont have to often. Youre right, I know I did everything possible for Ryan, but god had a different plan. It is hard to accept at times, its just so unfair to him and his parents. I hoped and prayed for him. Hes at peace I know that now. Bette thank you for being here, thanks for loving me, and thank you for not listening to me and staying away from me. She smiled and Bette thought it was the most beautiful smile she had ever seen.
Tina kissed her.

Tina: you know I love you baby, but will you let me show you? I need to make love,
reaffirm our love, you make me feel so alive, I want to make love to you.

Tina kissed Bette passionately, her hands under her shirt caressing her ***** and licking her neck..
Bette: Tina, you are so amazing you make me feel alive with every fiber of my being. I want you to make love to me.
Tina: I adore you Bette. Tina then put her hand down the front of Bettes boxer shorts, Bette was so wet and open. Tina entered her and thrust at her fast and hard, not letting up she moved her body down and took off the shorts and replaced her fingers with her mouth, sucking and licking then pinching her ***** with her teeth. Bette came violently and fast, her legs wrapped around Tinas shoulders and neck. Bette held her in place while the waves of pleasure finally ebbed. She pulled Tina up to her and held her, kissing her.

Tina: Thank you for being you Bette, your love makes me whole, it is the most amazing love.
Bette: T, loving you is easy, your so kind and so beautiful mind, body, and soul. I love you completely and Ill always be here.

They spent the rest of the day adoring and pleasing each other. Feeling alive and vibrant. Mostly just holding and talking to each other. Truly loving the life they had. together