Part of Shane wants to sleep and forget that this day never happened, part of her just want to hold Carmen in her arms and never let her go, part of her just want to talk to Alice until she doesn’t have anything else to say. Then it struck her; Alice doesn’t know that she has a kid and that she’s married. This was giving Shane even more of a headache. She knows that she have to come clean to Alice; if she still wants to proceed whatever it is between them.

A few minutes later Carmen enters the room. Both of them were quiet. Neither of them didn’t know what to say. But it was Carmen who broke the silence.

“I… I-I need help Shane…” Carmen said sounding helpless as she starts to cry. Her hands on her face, hiding from Shane. There was no reply from Shane.

“I really need help… I don’t know what’s happening to me…” She continues. Shane always knew that Carmen had a drug problem; Shane also knew that Carmen has been sober from it for a year now but not the full story. Shane looked Carmen; crying with her hands on her face slowly her body sliding down.

“How long…” Shane asked.

“Seven months…” Carmen said, still crying. “You’re never here Shane…” Carmen said between her sobs. “I just needed someone… and you’re not here…” Carmen said.

Shane got up and went to Carmen who was now sitting on the floor with her knees together, crying uncontrollably. Shane sat in front of Carmen and held her in her Shane’s strong arms. “Sssshhhhh… I’m sorry…” Shane’s always the one who says sorry even if it’s not her fault. “You should’ve said something baby… I’m not a mind reader…” Shane said, realizing that this past two years she’s been letting her work control her life. Only visiting Carmen and Lily twice a month and off again to another part of the world.

Shane held Carmen face; lift it up so that she could look her in the eyes. “I’m here okay… I’ll always be there for you when you need me…” Shane didn’t have the heart to tell Carmen the truth with what she really feels. Right now she needs to help her wife. Carmen could only nod; Shane could feel the shake from Carmen’s body knowing that she probably didn’t have her fix yet.