Those first few weeks and months, I remember going home and taking so many cold showers, it wasn’t even funny.”
“Bette, I made you wait a long time before we made love the first time.”

“T,. you didn’t make me wait. I wanted to. I knew how hard it was for you, and everything that you were going through. I had promised you that I would not pressure you to do anything you were not ready for. But I have to tell you, that first time is etched in my memory.”

“It’s there in mine as well B. It was the most amazing night of my life. You were so gentle, and yet so sure of yourself. No one had ever made me feel that way…ever.”

“T, I was so nervous, no one had ever made me feel the way that you did either. I had been with a lot of women, but no one ever made me feel loved and cared for the way that you did. That first time for you was a first for me as well. I had never truly made love to another woman before. I had sex with women, but I had never really made love with any of them. You were my first. The first person that I had given my heart and soul to. You had found a way to touch my soul with your beauty, honesty, vulnerability……with your love. I had never felt that way about anyone. It wasn’t about the sex, it was about the joining of my soul with yours. Touching you, kissing you, it was the most amazing thing I had ever experienced. I just remember feeling so over-whelmed by your love. I felt safe with you, and that no matter how crazy things got around me, I knew that I could always count on you to catch me when I fell.

T, I know that I hurt you deeply over and over again. So many times, when I would say that I would be home early, only to show up hours later. Or tell you I would call, and then I wouldn’t. I took you for granted…”

“Bette you didn’t.”

“Yes T, I did. We both know it. Maybe we didn’t realize it back then, but it had an impact on us both. I would hurt you, we would argue, make up and then all would be right again…..until the next time. I don’t know how you put up with me for as long as you did.”