Maybe I should just Go

Chapter Thirteen


Bette, why is all your stuff ready to go? Did you find your own place? Not liking the way her sister had to find out, she had no other way around the truth.

Im leaving for New York. Peggy Peabody is setting me up with some stuff so I can move on over there.

But Bette why do you have to run? Why cant you just stay and face the facts?

I did Kit Kat, and the fact is this is a great opportunity for me. Besides it might not be for long. She knew that Kit knew that wasnt the real reason.

So its just temporary? Baby girl, just because she has someone else you dont have to leave to the other side of the country. Knowing Kit was right,

What am I supposed to do Kit, I love her and I have tried lord knows how to make this right. I even changed or am trying to change for her. But for what so she can move on with someone else. Dont worry Kit, Im happy for her really.

So when are you gonna tell them, or better yet her.

Tomorrow night at Milk.

So thats it, huh.

Kit Kat, I love you and I thank you for everything, I just need to get away and do this ok.

Fine, but the minute you can, you come back to me ok.

Promise.


Having tried to sleep her last night in L.A., Bette just couldnt do it. Instead she put her headphones on, turned on her favorite song of the moment, which she thought was a coincidence coming out at a time like this, and wrote what might be the last letter ever to Tina.

And as her words spilled over with the words of the song, her tears that she finally let herself really cry came out. With every word she wrote, the memories of her and her old life came creeping back in to remind of her of what was done.

Dear Tina,

I know I failed you and I tried to change, but I guess it wasnt enough for us. I apologized a million times and cried the tears that I had no right to cry for you. The pain and cracks that now cover your broken heart will forever stay in my heart. I can never take it back and now know that we could never go back as well. But here as the words come out of my soul, just know that I love you, have loved you, did love you, and will always be loving you. I hope you dont see this as running away, but know that I will never be gone, for my heart could only live inside yours. I am truly happy that you have found new happiness and I wish you the best. I leave you with these words that are running through my ears,


I’m not a perfect personThere’s many things I wish I didn’t doBut I continue learningI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over new and the reason is you

T, you are all my reasons. Loving you Always and Completely,

Elizabeth Porter

She then got in her car and drove to her once home and left the letter in the mailbox.


As it was her last day at the CAC, a luncheon was held in her honor and she was told that she would always be welcomed back. Though a selfish part of her remained, she asked James to think about going up there to work for her, he smiled and said he would let her know.

She hadnt intended for Alice and the gang to find out just yet, but Alice had surprised her because she knew Tina told her.

Can we talk for a sec, and didnt let Bette reply. After being dragged into her now empty office, Alice let her have it.

What the ***** is going on? Tina calls me about some letter and I dont know what to say. Were you not going to tell me and just run away as if nothing?

Alice, she grabbed her friends hand and intertwined them with hers, Im not running, Im trying to get on with stuff and Peggy Peabody

You cant go. We all still need you.

Al, you guys will be fine, shell still be here.

Yeah, but the best part of her wont beyou

Look why dont we all meet up at Milk and have some drinks okay.

What about Tina?

What about her, Alice, even for Bette that was a little harsh. She knows where I stand and that I am ok with her now. If she goes she goes, if not, then I wish her the best.


Everyone knew why they were suppose to be celebrating. It was a farewell off for Bette.

Bette I will miss you.

Dane, me too, but you guys are welcome to come and visit anytime right. Dana couldnt help but admit to herself that a little part of that old gleam that Bette used to have was now coming back. When they had split, her eyes had become something that she had never seen before.

And besides, Ill still watch you on t.v, and everyone couldnt help but notice that every time Bette would take a drink, she would look around as if Tina could come in any second.

I dont think shell come Bette. Bette looked at Alice and hated how she knew her so well.

Well you guys, this is the last round because my cab is coming in ten.

Ok, to my baby sister.

Baby sister, they all shouted in unison. And as the drinks were finished and the hugging was all done, just as she was about to walk away from the bar and her family, suddenly there she was, in the door way. And as if in the old movies, they met each other in the middle of the dance floor.

Im glad you came,

I wasnt going to, and that hurt. I just came to wish you well,

T,

Dont Bette please, and one tear fell down her face.

Then tell me to stay, and searched for the answer in her eyes.

You know I cant, and that wasnt what Bette wanted to hear.

She pulled Tina into one last hug, when she did, her ring that she had wore since that day, got caught in Tinas blouse. As Bette pulled away from the embrace the chain busted, and instead of one ring falling to the floor, two appeared instead of the one.

They both looked down and instead of grabbing her own, Bette grabbed for Tinas. Tina though only saw one and looked at it as Bette went to go pick it up, and as she started to get up, once again she turned so that way she wouldnt face Tina, and walked out the door.

Tina just stood there and looked at the door, she didnt say or do anything, then she walked to the restroom, and freshened up.

The group followed and when no one saw, Shane went to pick up the very ring and put it around her neck. It was all she had left of Bette.