sry i know i know its been awhile

Shane awoke to the sound of glass clinking. She opened one eye slowly to realize that she was at the bar. "Damn" Shane said startling the bartender. He smiled and pushed a Bloody Mary toward her. Shane finished it in two gulps and waved to the bartender in thanks as she headed slowly towards the elevator. In the elevator she leaned back against the wall cursing her self. When the elevator got to her floor she stumbled toward her room and fumbled with her cardkey noticing her splitting headache. She opened the door quietly remembering the Latina in her bed and was surprised to find a note instead of the women she slept with the night before. Shane was too tired to open the note so she just collapsed onto the bed. She woke up a few hours later to the sound of a jackhammer inside her skull. She rolled over slowly and when the room came into focus she realized it was someone banging on her door. She tried to smooth her wrinkled shirt to no avail and threw her hands up in defeat. She opened the door to find Alice standing impatiently. "What the hell happened to you? Yuck! You smell like you’ve been in a bar all night." Shane ran a hand through her hair sheepishly as Alice stared at her in shock. "Shane! What the fuck? What happened to that sexy chick you had here last night? Aww Shane come on! Don’t tell me you fucked her and left for the bar?" At this Shane stared at her feet suddenly more interested in the beige carpeting than in her best friend. "I didn’t mean to Al. I just went to get a drink and come back and I got distracted…" Shane said trailing off. "Distracted by what? Another girl?" Alice asked accusingly. "Nothing like that", Shane said quickly shaking her head. Suddenly she remembered the note from Carmen. "Listen Al, I need to take a shower but I’ll meet you in the dining room when I’m done, ok? I’ll tell you everything", Shane said quickly shutting the door in Alice’s face. There was nothing Alice could do, but give an annoyed sigh and head downstairs to wait for Shane. Shane reached for the letter, but thought better of it. She had waited all night and she could wait a little longer. She stepped out of the shower refreshed and feeling much better than she did twenty minutes before. It was time. Shane felt a shiver go down her back and it wasn’t because she didn’t have a shirt on. Sitting there with the note in her hand reminded her of the morning ten years ago when she went through almost the same thing. Suddenly a feeling of rejection washed over her and she ground her teeth and balled her fist until her knuckles turned white. It was all she could do not to cry. The women who had affected her the most had slipped through her fingers like grains of sand. Both while she slept. Shane blew out a sigh and promised herself she would never let anyone hurt her like that again. She tore the letter into tiny pieces and headed to the balcony. Shane remembered a scene from a disturbing dream she had. She was standing at the edge of a body of water. All of her close friends surrounded her. Every one of them… except Dana. Alice held an urn filled with Dana’s ashes and sprinkled them over the water. As Alice had done with the ashes Shane did with the note from Carmen. She didn’t feel any better, but after a quick fix of oxy she was up to par. Shane threw on a shirt and again stumbled down to the bar, turning into the dining room instead. There was Alice looking agitated. Shane plopped down in the seat and gave Alice a lopsided smile. "Coffee please." Shane said to the well endowed waitress that came up to the table. Shane sucked in air, winked at the woman and knew she would be a little busy later. "What’s up?" Shane asked Alice. "That’s what I want to ask you."

"I’m fine. Everything’s good."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah I’m fine."
"What happened to that girl?" Shane shrugged and sipped her coffee. She wanted Alice to think she didn’t care. If she could convince Alice, then maybe she could convince herself. Alice could see right through Shane, but decided to play along. She shrugged to signal the end of the conversation and asked Shane if she was coming shopping with the rest of the gang. "Yeah I guess so", Shane said, slightly slurring her words. Alice rolled her eyes and told Shane to meet them in the hotel lobby in two hours. Shane nodded and ambled off to find the busty waitress.