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Chandelier – 41
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Tina leaned against the door. "We destroyed each other. For what reason, I don’t know. But at some point, even before Provocations, we were falling apart. I don’t…"
Bette watched as Tina tried to collect her thoughts.
Tina sighed. "The kind doctor asked me, straight out, when was the last time you and I really talked. I mean, not about us, but about life in general. When was the last time we genuinely had a good conversation. And I couldn’t give a decent answer. I was either making excuses for you, or for myself, and I hate not knowing you, Bette. I hate that I don’t know who you are anymore."
"And I feel differently." Was the sarcastic reply, even before Bette could stop herself. She knew where this was inevitably going to, and she had learned early on when to put her defenses up.
"The Bette I know would never have cheated on me."
"But you’re the same woman who went from men to me, is that it?" Bette asked sharply, even as she thought that she really should have stuck to the regular meetings Foxworthy suggested.
"Oh, God, I knew you’d take this as an attack." Tina mumbled.
"What am I supposed to think?" Bette demanded. "Once again you’ve managed to factor in my affair."
"It bust the doors wide open, Bette!" Tina shot back, ignoring the people who glanced at the SUV as they passed by the parked car. "We were fine. We weren’t perfect, we weren’t the picture of bliss we used to be, but we weren’t…"
"I know." Bette cut in softly, understanding what Tina meant. "Okay, I get it."
Tina sighed, then finally looked up at her. "Do you?"
Bette glanced at her.
"I fucked up, Bette. Even before this affair. I screwed up. You know that."
"No, I don’t." She didn’t?
Tina held her gaze. "When we started you warned me about how different life with you was going to be from everything else I knew. And I told you I was coming in with no expectations, and guess what? I made them. I made them, and I expected you to live up to them."
"How is that you fucking up and not me?"
Tina groaned. "You warned me, and I ignored that. But your warning was there, and I kept on hearing it, over and over, and I’d tell myself, I can’t make expectations. But they were there. And eventually I just stopped trying to control making those expectations. And I judged you for them, for not living up to them."
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Okay… welp, at least they’re getting stuff of their chests.
:sigh: Tina.. tina.. tina.., kit’s going to kill you if you screw bette up again.
As painfull as it maybe, it needs to be done. Lack of communication is the enemy for this couple. So let them hash it out and GET OVER IT and MOVE ON!!!!
As harsh as it is, they’ve been needing this conversation for a while now. They won’t be able to move forward together until they do. So, let them hash it out at the beach!
I hope they get all of this anger and pain out and get to move on. thanks for making me cry…
Off to the hard and scary. It’s the only way forward.
you have to post next chapter really soon and i’ll follow…i know you can fix this
Well Tiffduke, you’ve done it again. Another great chapter by you. I Loved it. I rather have B&T screaming,shouting,cursing at eachother, than completely ignoring thier issues. And you know what, when you love somoene, you gotta scream at them sometimes. So i’m enjoying both of them expressing their true feelings. I don’t like things sugarcoated, so i’m all in. I can’t wait till they get to the beach. After the fight, there comes love. Post soon!!
Tiffie…You’re da bomb. Each and every chapter is amazing. Great dialogue, real emotion. Two heavyweights duking it out. And now the beach. Good things always happen for them at the beach. Make up sex after arguments?? Perhaps?? What does tiff_duke mean?
such a great story! i’m looking forward more chapters to come! please don’t keep us waitin long! =)
great chapter. very powerful dialogue and iam sure this will help them move fwd. thanks!
I’m with azmama. Let them get everything out at the beach then fall on the sand and make up. But please let Tina have a blanket in the car. Sand in the crack isn’t very pleasant from what I’ve heard.
This needed to happen. It is the only way that they can really move forward. Tina was finally letting out all of her fears that started with their very beginnings. As mad as this made Bette, Tina had the courage to lay it all on the line. If Bette really listened to Tina she would have realized that Tina was taking most of the blame for the failings of their life together. This was definitely painful but a huge step in the right direction.
Great chapter. A little difficult but hey they are confronting all of their demons.
Wow, you are simply amazing! I can’t wait until they get to the beach.
They were bound for a full on/drag out. You’re telling this story flawlessly. Brilliant!
THAT WAS HARSH BUT IT NEEDED TO BE DONE ALONG TIME AGO.CANT WAIT FOR THE FOLLOW UP TO THE BEACH AND BEYOND!!!
Yes talking everything out is important…Tina can’t keep this dance up…it’s not fair to anyone. And yes Kit will string her up if she hurts Bette again and she will have some words for Bette if she hurts Tina too…so on to the beach to duke it out.
I knew it was all going too well. I’m almost speechless at how your writing just keeps getting better and better, especially the way that you write for Tina. Incredible.
Thank you – that has been needed for a long long time now maybe maybe maybe they can move on without glossing things over. You ar an amazing writer.
This is hard for them and they need to talk and work thing out. Ok post soon please, thanks!
If only the show were this well written…*sigh*
Great…great dialogue…and the beach/the water is so healing, I think but then isn’t that where Henry and Tina had their fateful discussion about their spouses etc???? But anywayz, clear the air cause they have to……love your writing.
Time to strap in there’s rough weather up ahead….oh the drama! Love it. Thanks for writing.
Talking is good, talking this way … not a 100 % sure. Lokking forward to see what’s comming.
God, Tina, forgive or never…
Gut wrenching and intense, but something that had to be done if they really have a chance of a future together. Tiff, you write so wonderfully well. Thank you.
TD, I know it’s been a while since I’ve commented but trust me, I’ve been reading. I just think the last words spoken by Bette are so true of their entire relationship,”You lead I’ll follow”. Please do keep writing. I’ll be PM-ing you; you need to reveal your writing secret…you’re just too good!
Hey TD, That was tough but necessary. These two really need to clear the air and all of their dirty laundry. It was difficult and old destructive habits returned however they are still talking and communicating their true emotions so there is much to be hopeful for. After all of the hurt and trauma of their past they need time to sort through these issues. I love the way you fabulously capture both their individual and unique points of view. Bring on the beach and let hope a brighter, shared future together. Your writing deals with the reality of their breakup and reconcilliation in an open and honest and refreshing manner. Please continue with this great work. Your Loyal Fan.
No one does it like you do.. You’re the best.. The timing is perfect, this had to be done.. Bring on the next chapter..
oh man i was so ready to read more can’t wait post more soon
wow! tiff, this chapter was just intense. i think bette needs to let down her defenses in order to hear, really hear, what tina is saying. but i guess it is difficult for bette to do so after being hurt by tina. can’t wait to see what’s coming next. please post soon.
Terrific as always!
Phew, they had a lot to vent. I was particularly struck by T’s comment about the CAC wearing B down and that after a while she just got used to it. I think that is really true, especially when you live with someone who has always been consumed by their work. How do you tell when they are overwhelmed by it, if they don’t tell you themselves? Anyway, I’m happy that Bette didn’t run away.Looking forward to the next chapter – great story!
WOW!!! That was a powerful and great chapter. Please let them talk and not fight. Great as always Thank you
You are so dead on with this…thankyou
BTW, I really got some insight from Tina’s confessions. Very perceptive. How unlike the show! (I really need to work on my repetitive resentment. It does no good to dwell on the past, does it???) Serenity NOW!!!
I think they need a death-defying moment (like a near-drowning at the beach) to get them to focus on the important stuff and let the past stay behind them. Something NEEDS to pull focus for them. Tiff, make it so!! Thank you for another chapter in the bewildering go-round that is Bette and Tina. Yes, Tina better watch her a**, Kit Porter has put her on notice! See you at the beach!
maybe i am to harsh but they need to have this talk sometime ago, cause if they not open her heart wiht great feelings and all theirs fears they can’t move on in the relationship! good very very good!
Wow, this is hard, but I guess it’s necessary for them to find out if they are doing the right thing by getting back together. I’m hoping they work it out. Well, only time will tell.
Bleep! Bleep! and double Bleep! excuse the Bleeps! Wow had a few chappies to catch up on and Wow and Wow again you are some writer, you must know that by now. I knew it was to good to be true everything was running along smoothly, the flow had to get interrupted, I just hope that T and B can resolve their problems and move on together. Thanks Tiff.