Chapter Ten

Bette had a hard time concentrating during the meeting. She did her best to take in the ideas and give her own opinion, but she was very distracted. Of course ms Kennard was already aware of her sexuality, otherwise she wouldn’t be here. Still, it was an entire different matter to be caught with your girlfriend by the woman you truly loved.

She was also worried about Emily. She had run inside to escape her teacher, altough she wasn’t sure what is was that she didn’t dare to face. Ms Kennard couldn’t be mad at her for being late – it wasn’t her style and she was running late herself. She wouldn’t make a fuss about Bette kissing a girl, they were both heading for an LGBT meeting after all. Something in her was just so embarrassed she couldn’t face it.

When the meeting was over, Bette quickly packed her things, hoping to be out of there as soon as possible. She had seen the look of distress on Emily’s face when she had entered the room and she needed to talk to her, she didn’t want her to think she was ashamed of what they had.

Her attempt failed when ms K spoke – at first, she didn’t even realise she was being talked to.

“Bette, can I have a word with you please?”

Nathalie poked her and Bette looked up. “Oh – uh – sure.”

She looked around for Emily and found her standing at the door, waiting for her. Emily catched her look, shrugged and gave a half-hearted smile, her eyes showing a strange feeling. It wasn’t despair, it was more like she had given up the hope anyway and this had to be done. She turned her back on Bette and walked out.

The brunette sighed. Emily was really a great person and they rarely had a fight. Bette didn’t quite understand that after her confession, she still wanted to be with Bette. Emily had said that her feelings were strong enough to want to try, but Bette didn’t know if she would want to be with Emily if she knew that Emily’s heart belonged to someone else.

For the first time, she wondered if she would want to be with ms Kennard even if she was totally into someone else. The answer came without a doubt: yes. She was willing to share ms Kennard, as long as she could just have a part of her, a part of her love and her heart. She also realised that she would find it hard to deal with, it would tear her apart that she didn’t have this woman to herself. She was a jealous and possessive type, no matter how hard she tried to deny it.