Yes that night I had a few drinks to many, and yes I didn’t want to go home. You were not at all in a mood to party, and just want to go home, I on the other hand was in a party mood, and that’s when our problems start. You want to go home, and me, myself and Tina wants to dance and drink…….

So yes we had a fight and you left me at the bar, which was not the end of the world. I knew my way home, I could take a taxi, but then Grant came and offered me a drink. I think it was drugged, because I couldn’t remember anything from there. He took me home and he raped me. (I also had a chance to talk to him before he died. He told me the whole story.)

Ok let me go on. When I woke up I was alone, I got dressed and ran home, as it was just a block away. By the time I got home you were already packed and ready to leave. You didn’t give me a chance to explain, when I told you that I think that I’ve been raped, you yelled at me, that we fucked like rabbits, and told me that you don’t want to see me again, and then you left.

I waited for you to come home, but then Alice told me that your dad died and that you are going to stay in New York. I moved out of the house, took what I needed, and moved into a motel room. I didn’t go to class, stayed away from our friends, which by the way didn’t want anything to do with me. Alice called me a whore, and Dane just ignored me, because Alice wanted that. And then I found out that I was pregnant. I went to speak to Grant, but he just ignored me, so at the end I went home to tell my mom.

She also told me that I was a whore and that I’m not welcome in her house, she said that she will not pay for my study’s anymore, and also told me that she doesn’t want to see me again. I left her house, I left town and never looked back again.

I ended up in the same town as your aunt Gracie, I almost miscarriage and ended up in her ER Room. She helped me that night. She saved Ella. She recognise me, and asked me where I was staying, work etc. Then she took me under her wing. Gave me a flat, work and acceptance. I begged her not to tell you.

Everything went well I worked at her practice. Ella was born a few months later and Gracie became an instant grandma. Life was ok again.

Then I met Mike, he was nice and I thought that I loved him, we got married. In the beginning he was nice to Ella and me, He demanded that I leave my work, but a year into our marriage he lost his work and start to drink. So now we have zero income, and because of his drinking problem he start to hit me. There were a shit load of bills that needed to paid, and no money to pay it.

Aunt Gracie phoned me and asked me to come back to work. I told him that night that I decided to go back to work, he hit me and then raped me. That night I took Ella and my personal stuff got into my car and went to Aunt Gracie. I filled for a divorce and ended up working with your Aunt again.

Then all of a sudden Ella got sick and after a lot of test they diagnosed her with a brain tumour. Aunt Grace said that Doctor Harvey was the best in this field, and she organised for an appointment. And that is when I saw you for the first time again.

Bette I don’t have money, I’ve got nothing, not even my own dignity. I can’t give you anything, except my love, I’m a broken women, a whore like my mom called me…… if you can accepted this then we can try to work on our differences.

I know I love you, I’ve been in love with you from the moment I first lie eyes on you. I will love you forever……..

Tina”