Millie saw this and held me to her again, whispering words of comfort and love in my ear, trying to make everything better. Even though she couldn’t, even though it wasn’t her place to do so. Yet she tried and I held her back, the only light in this situation was her; the woman I had fallen for, the woman who had stolen my heart, the woman I never wanted to be without.

It was my turn to pull back now, Millie was lost for words, I could tell and I didn’t blame her. What was there to say in a situation like this, words didn’t even do it justice, nothing did.

The look in Millie’s eyes was enough to sober me up, bring me back to reality. I had to deal with this, there was no point running away and ignoring it anymore. He was my father and always would be, nothing was going to change that, unfortunately.

Trix, do you want to leave?

I hesitated, Millie saw this, it was hard to miss. I could tell she was holding her breath for my answer, she knew how hard this was for me. But then again, this probably wasn’t the easiest thing for her either.

I shook my head, glancing down at the floor to compose myself. I would either avoid him for the whole night and drown my sorrows with free wine and hopefully forget everything in the morning. Or confront him and try and get some form of peace of mind out of this pretty crazy evening.

No, no Im ok. Im just in shock that’s all.

Millie knew I was understating, but she offered a weak smile and leant in close. Once again I was brought face to face with one of the only things that could make everything better, push everything away and replace it with something so beautiful and pure that it simply took my breath away.

Thank you. I whispered, my lips not even an inch away from hers.

For what?

For being you.

I was so full of emotion right then that honesty was my only policy. There was no point in skirting around the issue anymore, I just had the biggest slap from reality that I could ever have. And it was probably the best thing to sort my head out. Now everything was clear, there was just no point in denying the feelings I had for Millie anymore.