As Tori lay there, held securely in Shane’s embrace, her warm breath playing softly against the sensitive skin of her neck, all she wanted to do was scream.  She felt the tears running slowly and quietly down her soft cheeks, her lip trembling and her brow furrowing.  She felt as though she was a million miles away, her heart heavy and her soul bruised.  As if Shane sensed Tori’s need, she snuggled into her, holding her that little bit closer, subconsciously trying to reassure her.  Tori felt this, was grateful for it and yet resented it. she both needed it and yet didn’t want it.  She wanted someone to take her hand, to guide her through this journey and to give her some clarity.  She wanted someone or something to take away her confusion, her insecurity and her doubt and leave her with only thing she was certain of. her love for Shane.

Shane lay there, fully awake and aware of her surroundings, holding Tori close to her and trying to ease a little of the pain that she sensed was tearing the woman she loved apart.  She kept her eyes closed and her breathing deep, she knew that Tori needed this time to herself, needed to think but all she wanted to do was try to ease her pain and clear the confusion.  She wanted to show Tori how much she had changed because of her, how much better her life was and how she had been nothing but an empty shell until Tori had entered the picture but now wasn’t the time.  All Shane could do for now was hold her close and give Tori her space. after all, Rome wasn’t built in a day and Shane didn’t expect to negate all Tori’s fears in the space of a single morning.  It was then that Shane decided that no matter how long it took, no matter what she had to do, she was going to make Tori happy.  She was going to show Tori how much she meant to her with actions as well as words, she was going to do whatever she had to do to keep the woman in her arms by her side forever and always.

Tori silently cried herself to sleep, knowing that at the same time she was the happiest and the saddest she had ever been.

TBC. Not sure if you guys would like me to continue but please comment and let me know if you do, hope you enjoyed? Nix