God this felt good. I was feeling empowered. All these things that I have had bottled up for so many years, years even before college. I wanted to just keep going and never stop, bring up everything and eventually hearing a dial tone in my ear but all I heard was silence ”Bette loves me”

”I’m sure she does but you don’t fool me, this is your game. A game that neither of us knew about but fall right into your trap”

”I bet you filled Bette what this bullshit, didn’t you?”

”No Carly, she will make the right decision without me telling her lies and exaggerations. I know eventually Bette will on her own figure out that what kind of manipulating woman you really are”

”Don’t hold back, you treating me like I am the one…”

I again cut in. Now was my time ”Yes, I did a terrible and unforgivable thing to you but did you ever in all the time we knew each other… did it ever occur to you to maybe ask me every now and then? Tina, let’s do this class together. You have always liked art in all its forms, it was you that enjoyed it but you dragged me along because you didn’t like to alone and when I got my first big break in Hollywood, do you remember what you told me?”

”Congratulations?” She guessed. Fuck, how was I friends with this woman

”Before that, before I even had a chance to say where I was working or even what I was doing?” I took the silence as a ’ding’ going off in her brain ”You couldn’t understand why I chose film over art. How I couldn’t truly see the beauty in art” I laughed sarcastically ”Did you ever think that maybe you chose the wrong road, that maybe movies are beauty as well”

”My passion got me Bette”

”Your passions connected you, yes”

”I don’t even understand what you and Bette would have in common”

I was so  not going there ”Bette made her decision last night so be happy Carly” I was ready for a drink. Would Helena be against having me over for a morning Tequila? Probably.

Before I had a chance to hang up I heard her ”Did you really love her or…”

I closed my eyes tightly and as I opened them I answered, honestly ”Even if I did, it really doesn’t make much of a difference to you, does it?”

”Not really…”

Then I heard the click. Bitch hung up first.