She seems magical to me sometimes. Just the pleasure alone is cause for extreme excitement, but that perfect delivery of pain … My oh my, is it ever heavenly. I couldn’t even imagine giving myself to anyone else.

You know, she asked me the other day about my feelings regarding us, and I couldn’t believe she had any doubt. Had I made her think that? Maybe that was why she was so upset for that while. But I would never turn to another woman. Not after loving her – there’s no going back. And I wouldn’t want to.

I read something yesterday about the mix of pleasure and pain, and it really interested me.
Reminder to self – look this up when there’s time! Natural physical connection to the two, experienced more in some people. Continuum.
– More interested in the dopamine system!

Dear Diary,

It’s me, Bette. I just wanted to clarify that I belong to my Mistress Tina, and that anything she asks of me, I will do it. I will humiliate myself if she asks for that. I am at her beck and call for three days straight now, because I have lost out on a bet, being a very, very bad girl.

She may do with me as she wishes, and I hope it’s entirely cruel.

I will bow down to her and feed her and love her and please her for as long as she wishes. I am her slave, and that it especially true until this long weekend is up. No work, no calls, and no excuses.

This is definitely Bette writing this, and not anyone else. Either way, I am going to be a pushover for my Mistress these three days. I will do anything she wishes. Oh Diary, I can’t wait! Oh golly, I’m so excited to be embarrassed and used and tied and whipped.

I give myself over to my ever-so-powerful and all-knowing Mistress.

I know you’re trying to humiliate me, but it’s all true.
Signed,
Bette Porter

You’re only difficult woman to embarrass …

Why do I have the feeling you’ll manage just fine?

Mmm … turn around.

Uh oh.

Dear Diary,
I’m about to get a finger up my ass.

Mmm … there’s that blush I wanted.
Now bend over.