"It was a mistake to get back together ….we should never have-"

"Tina stop it!" Bette reaches out and grabs Tina by the arms. "Don’t you dare say that this was a mistake! That our love is a mistake!" By now Bette also had tears running down her face.

"Don’t you understand! We shouldn’t have gotten back together!! We tried it before, we were horrible to each other and it ruined us!"

"I don’t care! We made mistakes!!…but were different now."

Tina shakes her head and looks her lover in the eyes not wanting to cause her anymore pain. "If we continue this relationship….we will get hurt like last time." Tina reaches out to wipe Bette’s tears away. "Or we could be hurt even worse….so could our daughter."

"We both know perfectly well that niether of us is capable of hurting her."

"Thats not what  I mean Bette!"

They stared at each other for a few seconds letting everything that had just been said sink in. Bette was still in utter disbelief at what Tina had said to her and was completely scared that Tina might leave her again. She knew Tina loved her and didn’t understand why she was letting this get between them.

Then Bette felt Tina move out of her reach and walk past her toward the door. Bette finally snaps out of it and when she realizes what is happening, she quickly turns around to face Tina who was almost to the door. "Don’t walk away from me." Bette says with a stern but timid voice.

Bette’s voice made Tina stop but she didn’t turn around. She didn’t know if she had the strength to walk away from her again. Tears were falling uncontrollably  down their faces because their hearts were breaking all over again.

"Don’t do this to us…not again." Bette finally walked up to Tina and spun her around to face her but Tina wouldn’t look into her eyes. "I love you Tina Kennard. You are the love of my life. Now look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t fell the same way about me." Tina wouldn’t look her in the face so Bette shook Tina slightly. "Tell me you don’t love me." Tina still refused to look at Bette. "Look at me!!" Bette grabs Tina’s face with force and makes Tina look at her. "Say it!"

"….Bette…your the love of my life…but thats not enough. I refuse to break your heart again."

"Tina, my heart is already breaking and your the only one that can fix it."

"Bette, I can’t-"

"If you walk out that door…you will be breaking my heart forever." Bette gently holds Tina’s face between her hands and wipes the tears away with her thumbs. "All you have to do is trust me Tina. Just trust that I love you and that there is no other woman out there for me. Please Tina…..can you trust me?"

It was hurting Tina so much to see how much pain Bette was in, but she believed that if she didn’t leave then things would end up even worse because she wouldn’t be able to control herself from the questions that would always be in her head. Where is she? What is she doing? Why isn’t she home yet? Would she cheat on me again? Those questions would always be inside eating her away. If she decided to stay with Bette then they would end up miserable and Tina didn’t want a life like that for either of them, especially not for Angelica. She justed wanted Bette to be happy even if that ment not being the one she spends the rest of her life with.

"I’m sorry…I can’t. "And with that Tina ran crying out the door leaving the only woman she had ever loved and will always love until she takes her last breath.

"TINA!!!" Bette watched as the love of her life walked out the door again and she fell to the floor unable to contain her pain.