With Tina, Bette had settled down and loved with the idea of family, but perhaps she was fooling herself. When that relationship came apart she rebounded to Jodi but it wasn’t the same. Jodi did not have the single minded devotion she enjoyed with Tina. Jodi did not love kids but certainly tolerated Angelica. They were having issues with basic communication. Sexually they were compatible. However, Bette had to face the facts that this was not what she was looking for in the long term.

Jodi was trying to be something she was not with Bette, monogamous. Perhaps humans are not meant to be monogamous. The thought of cruising the bars again at this time in her life just did not set right with her. She has a daughter and needed to create a stable environment for her. Again she thought of Helena. She chuckled that her old nemesis Helena was the one person she was contemplating pursuing a relationship with.

How did they get to this point? It really just seems like a natural flow in their maturation process. She could not think of any one turning point but she has to acknowledge finally to herself that she was drawn to Helena on so many different levels.

They were so similar in their level of education, love for art and love for children. They even looked somewhat similar. Perhaps Helena was simply a matter of self love for Bette. They both had difficult childhoods and were estranged from their mother although for different reasons. Peggy Peabody did try to make it up to Helena but in many ways still treated Helena as she was a dependent child. They were both coming out of personal crisis and reestablishing their own confidence.

Feeling a bit freer to pursue Helena and whatever they shared, she also became more apprehensive on how it would now change the dynamics and comfort she was enjoying with the way their relationship was. Perhaps a “friends with benefits” situation was right for them too.

They had never broached the topic of even dating, yet there she was, losing her mind over the sight of Helena in her incredibly sexy catwoman suit. Was it just the suit or did the share something more than a physical reaction that boiled over last night? She knew she needed to explore this more and looked forward to seeing Helena to discuss it. She found herself becoming jealous again at the thought of Helena with Candi. She truly felt as if she was being driven mad last night. Maybe now in the day, the bewitching, if you believe in those things, is over. Maybe she can make some sense of what they were going through.