I flourished under the wrap of the warmth on my body, it was a familiar notion to something I wished never left.

The sweetness was intoxicating, I let myself fantasize about Tina holding me in our bed. Her touch on my skin so soft and tender as she places intricate kisses down my bare torso.

Until we broke up I hadn’t realised how much stress I burdened and carried with each day. Before I had never wished or wanted so badly for Tina to take care of me and put me in my place. I always dismissed her opinions, her basic values and more importantly I’m ashamed to say her part in OUR relationship. It was always mainly a one sided relationship- how could that be a real relationship?

I was ready to show her the best of me, Tina had always brought to the surface a different side to me. Just somehow I got lost caught up in myself; my drama.
I couldn’t pretend any more, I could feel myself starting to wake up. It was inevitable that this moment would end.

My vision was blurry as the sunlight shone onto the foot of the bed. It took my eyes a few minutes to adapt to the beautiful rays. I could feel the light breath on my skin. I was nervous, my breath caught in my throat. My neck was stiff I could feel the aching as I turned to find the most beautifullest thing God ever created; Tina.

The small rise in her chest as she breathed in the same air as me and followed by a short exhale. My eyes trailed upwards to see a smile was planted across her face. She was still fast asleep, but the image would be something I would never forget. In all the years Tina had slept by my side, I’d never awoke to such a sight. Or maybe it was just I never took the time to notice.

The biggest regret I had was taking her for granted. She was too good for me, she put up with a lot of shit most women wouldn’t of. And yet I’m the one who hurt her.

The roundness of her bump in her tank top I notcied she still had her clothes on from the day before, even her jeans. I couldn’t believe I had been so out of it to not realise Tina had been by my side for most of the night.