She just felt that she hadn’t given herself the opportunity to be more experienced, to go out and date other girls and enjoy the chance of meeting and getting to know new people. She could literally count exactly how many people she’d been with on one hand. It’s not like she wanted to go and be out whoring around, but you know she just wanted to go out and date others— plain and simple, do something she’d never really done openly. Plus, it’s not like she really got to have a total relationship with Lara, she’d been too scared and now there was nothing really stopping her, except of course for Alice. Alice. Alice. Alice.

God she knew she loved her, she knew they were right together, right for each other—- but how could she possibly even think of? There was so much about Alice that she loved, it wasn’t just her looks, it was everything, her personality, her style, her flair for doing things that no one else could pull off-yet she did and she looked so damn hot doing it. She could literally close her eyes and picture Alice completely— her features, hear her laugh, smell her, taste her, see her smile, the way her hair always seemed to fall so perfectly messily around her face and her lips oh man were they soft, her eyes.her eyes were everything, they always held so much emotion, more recently she had seen the sadness growing in them, and she knew she was the one causing it. Then why.why would she even consider doing something that would break both of them.but she knew she had to.

She knew that she had to tell Alice and sooner rather than later. She had decided to tell Alice because she no longer felt that she could continue to hurt both of them. They were supposed to have a quiet late evening dinner at her condo that night, and therethat was where she would tell the blonde everything.

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Dana’s Condo

Alice arrived shortly after 9, smiling and laughing as she walked into the condo talking on her cell. “Okay I gotta go, I’m here—— yeah, we’ll talk later,” Alice said as she hurriedly hung up the phone. “Hey honey,” Alice said as she walked over to Dana kissing her softly on the lips. “Sorry it was Tina, you know telling me about Bette and the baby and how-” Dana cut off Alice before she could continue, “It’s okay Al, let’s sit down,” as she led Alice towards the couch. “I’m starving Dane, are we gonna eat soon?” “Yeahumm, sure, let’s go sit down first,” Dana mumbled trying to avoid any kind of eye contact with Alice.