Bette just stood and let her finish. "Is it my turn?"

"Bette…"

"Good" she interrupted " first of all no one wanted this Alicia. I never wanted this. You think I wanted to be a parent at 19. You brought this all on yourself. No one would be in this situation if you hadn’t decided to pick up where Mel left off. What ever happened to the girl who condemned him for using but loved his heart in spite of it. Huh? I held that girl. I loved that girl." the tears were to much for Bette to handle they were falling at a pace she wasn’t used to, despite them she refused to have an emotional break down in front of her. " I miss that girl."

"I’m still here Bette. I’m just waiting for you to say yes to me." As Alicia was watching Bette’s mind fight with her emotions she moved closer feeling a need to have Bette touch her, hold her like she used to. The way she moved spoke to Bette telling her that Alicia was on the move for not only her body but her heart as well. She couldn’t let that happen again. She moved her head away from Alicia when she was centimeters away from capturing her lips.

"Don’t."

"Bette I can still see me in your eyes, I know you want me."

"Yeah, well maybe you’d better invest in some contacts lens. Because the only person with possession of these eyes is Georgia waiting for my return. "

"Does she make you feel like I do?"

"Actually, no." the whole time Alicia was on the move towards Bette her mind was full of nothing but images of Tina smiling at her, the way her lips moved when she was calling her name, the way her face gave away whatever emotions she was feeling, the way she looked in the morning, the way she moved in the room, even the way she winked at her through the bathroom mirror were surging through her mind all at once. It was then that she realized, Alicia was nothing more than Bette’s need to try and hold onto to something solid, not wanting anything to change. Even if Alicia was cruel and hurtful she would never leave her, and here was Tina who was definitely leaving at the end of the summer. But it didn’t matter to her, no matter if she was half way around the world or not she still only loved Tina. Getting involved with Alicia only meant pain later on and eventual self hatred again. She couldn’t do that to herself or Tina who was so lovingly waiting for her return with nothing but trust and confidence keeping her warm at night.

"She doesn’t make me wish I hadn’t fallen in love with her. She doesn’t make me wish I didn’t have a heart to feel that pain. She doesn’t at all make me wish I hadn’t given her my heart. So to answer your question, no. She’s everything you’re not." Bette finished and saw the smile on her face fade slowly. She opened the door indicating that it was time for Alicia to go and in doing so she opened the door for Toni and Melito coming back from their shopping trip.

"What the fuck!"

"Alicia was just leaving." Melito slowly made his way over to Bette’s leg as he always did.

"Yeah, I’ll be on my way. Bette, at least think about my proposal." Alicia left trying to get both messages across to Bette. The look she sent her was clearly stating that this was a no that she was not going to stand for. Bette watched as she switched her hips up the walk way.

"You wanna tell me what the hell just happened."

Bette smiled big, picked up Melito kissed him and said "Tina."

TBC……………………………….