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First Year-Chapter 30
I relaxed deeply into the tub and let the water cascade over my head. I felt I needed a new birth, so to speak. This would be a new part of my life. My life with Dylan was over. I needed to let her go completely. Regardless of what happened to her, I needed to let her go and move into the next era of my life. I wanted to not look back. I wanted no regrets. I wanted no more Dylan. When I emerged from the tub, I took any reminder of Dylan and put it in a trash bag. Any photo, gift, memento, anything that vaguely reminded me of her was thrown into the bag, then into the trash. I deleted any emails, attachments, jokes, love letters from my laptop and cleared the recycle bin. I was so angry that if I could clear my own memory banks I would. But all that did was make me think of her more and what she meant to me. Clearing her from my physical space was much easier than clearing her from my mental space. I was left a total emotional and physical mess as I tried to get dressed for rounds that morning.
I suppose I still looked terrible when I got in. I avoided eye contact with everyone, especially with Bette. I hoped rounds would be quick since there was no formal teaching. All I had to go was check on my patients, review them with Tasha then sign out to Papi, who was on call for the team. I wanted to leave as quickly as I could, but Janice had several complex admissions that required a lot of discussion and teaching points. So my desired quick rounds and go home were quashed. Tasha was kind to me and stop asking me questions about the cases, after my third, “I’m sorry what did you say?”
When rounds were finally finished, I completed anything assigned to me, signed out to Papi and quickly made my way out the door. Before I could leave Bette called out to me, “Helena how was your party.”
I gave her a quick smile and said, “The party was great. I had fun.”
She laughed, “Then I suppose that’s why you look so run down.”
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(35 votes, average: 4.17 out of 5)
Actually Dylan gave Helena a great gift with her self-serving, passive/aggressive guilt trip. Just the perfect thing to get Helena past her. I would have hung up on her long before she hung up on Helena. Now, let’s concentrate on the once remote, now touchy-feely Bette. You know, that nice woman with the cupcakes and that moment of apparent mutual longing. That one.
Glad to see this story back–it is one of my favorites. Also glad that Helena is getting past the Dylan episode. Now, on to a more interesting relationship!
Leave it to Dylan to call at ruin Helena’s celebratio. But no worries b/c Bette will be there to make it all better. So Helena is done with Dylan for good…. So how about we speed things up and get rid of Bette’s boy toy ( just send him to outer space or something) pps! And I’m partiallykidding about the outerspace thing :-)
You have immense talent. This story is just so well written, meaningful dialogue, compelling characters, intricate character analysis, the coherent unfolding of the story all makes for reading delight and pleasure. The tension mounting between Hels and Bette. Just delish! Waiting and looking forward to the Sunday run.
I think we all have something to look forward to…the thumb to the back of the hand was a straight-up player move…lmao…anyway…I would’ve hung up on Dylan too…I mean the nerve…speaks volumes about her problems!!! As usual loved the update!!!
u know after making us wait a week u could have been kind enough to write more than a page and 1/2 with bette and helena, but i guess your teasing is why we wait not so patiently for you to write another chapter. would bribery help the frequency?
I’m sorry but I just had to say this but I never like the whole idea of Dylan taking money from Peggy. It seemed like a way out for Helena because she was cheating and regardless of what Helena did I knew everyone was going to place all the blame on Dylan. IMHO I don’t think Helena knows how to love. I think she gets caught up in the moment and convinces herself that she is in love because she wants so badly to be in love. I think Helena will get a real wake-up call from Bette. I don’t think Bette is connecting with her on the level she thinks. I’m assuming Helena might be Bette’s first friend and Helena is taking it the wrong way. Dylan was right Peggy does know Helena and when Helena can come to terms with herself maybe she can move on and be happy.
Thank you for my weekend fix Squirl. I may be nitpicking but it sounds to me like Dylan has some serious I problems, she was all about I this and I that and I have to own my guilt, but she never said she was sorry for the buy out of love. Sure Helens mother knows her she is her mother after all and knowing that Dylan should have not took the money and she should have not taken the relationship long distance. I don’t think there is anything wrong with Helena dreaming about Bettes’ sexy assets at least not until she gets her self together, a girl has to have something to dream about. So how long does it take after removing all the physical evidence of a relationship before you can more on from the mental evidence? I’ll consult with JC he should be able to tell me how many more chapters we can expect. Looking forward to next weekend, your sure to find nuggets by noon on Saturday. In fact by Saturday at noon I will be in a very difficult position so a little Sqirl healing would be great. No pressure. Thank you, Md aka Oma
Hey S, great updates had to catch up on quite a few, im saddened to here Dylan is in a bad place. But right now helena is not in the right state of mind to help Dylan although she once loved her she isnt willing to let her back into her heart. Bette is nice when you see her softer side I hope this run will be good for the both of them.
Great update! My only wish was that Helena could have hung up on her first! They both were wrong and that was a fact. But I would think if a person wanted to get back together with you maybe trying to guilt trip them into it is not a good idea. But I’m looking forward to some better times. I really want to see Bette take it up a notch. And I wouldn’t be surprise that Helena will be ready this time. In more ways then one.
S was very happy to have seen a new chapter on this great story. I am very pleased that Helena didnt take Dylan’s insults, guilt, and feel sorry for her so that she could have Helena back. Dylan made her life once she accepted Peggy’s $$$ and she lost her love with Helena,,,,so take it like a woman Dylan youl lost Helena and Helena got eyes for another beauty,,,Bette!!
Poor Dylan. I can feel her pain. Helena did the right thing, not taking her back, hard as it is. Looking forward to whatever may happen with the lovely Bette.
So will you hate me a lot if I let out a small cheer? YES!!!!! Dylan is on the back burner – at least for the moment…now let’s move ahead to some delightful Belena action. I was drooling with Helena when she thought about staring at that delicious a** all the way up the hill…talk about a way to make exercise fun!! In all seriousness, Dylan and Helen still have a lot of growth ahead of them. I can’t believe that Helena even considered allowing Dylan (even momentarily) back into her life…and I wonder how she could think that admitting to a newly sober, highly stressed resident and former love of her life, that she had an affair when they were still together was a good idea. OMG! Helena! Think before you speak. And Dylan – well she has a lot of healing to do. It sounds as though she is on the right path but it looks precarious. Can’t wait for the next weekly update — I hope it’s solely focused on their exercise…and a private showing of the condo.
Lost my first comment…grrr! Lol! Dang, Dylan is going through it…man…whew…breaking up again…never pretty! Hopefully it is enough…of everything for both of them to move forward…and for Dylan to get clean….. It does make you wonder how things would have gone down had Mama Peabody not interfered….hmmm…Ah new possibilities have a way of mending a broken heart, but has Helena truly dealt? Hmmm…I think this (romance?)…will be quite a bumpy road for a number of reasons…but an interesting ride, nonetheless….Loved the line: I was so angry that if I could clear my own memory banks I would….Where is the blue Men in Black pen when you need it?! Lol! Full of emotion! Great, as always! Thank you so much for sharing…PPS!
Well, the character of Dylan in this story is pretty much different from how I like to think about her, but both her and Helena are perfectly described and are acting consistently. I simply read any of your story and think “Well, that is the way I’d like to write…” Congratulation, you’re really talented. I still can’t picture Bette and Helena together, but maybe I’m still too attached to the serial characters. Thanks for your job.