Bette : I am so angry at myself, things were going so well and this, this thing happened. I was so mean to Tina, not just physically but mean spirited. I said things I shouldnt have, that I had no right to say but Tina has been teasing me the whole tine she has been here. She will sleep with others but not with me, Ive had enough. I know I was the one who didnt want to talk about other people we might have slept with, excepting my affair but that is not realistic and Tina cannot have expected that I would not ask about it, I mean she must know that I would. I decide to walk into town to get some food, not that I feel like eating and well I cant drive can I since Tina took the car. I start the walk, it is about three miles. The walk takes me awhile and the weather was warming up, kind of like home really and in that three miles I began to feel somewhat justified in my actions. But more than that I began to feel thirsty. I head into the bakery, time to see a friendly face, grab a drink and sit down, after all its a fair walk home. Things around here will close up soon anyway. I wander in, there is no one else about, I say Hi to Nicky the kind baker lady as I grab a drink and sit down. She saunters over, pulls the chair out turns it around and sits down, she waits, says nothing. I say nothing. Eventually she asks me how things are going with Tina. I lie and tell her they are going well. She just looks at me and I realize she knows something. She points her head towards the pub and says Thatd be why shes staying over there. I look at her in astonishment, firstly because Tina is still here and secondly because she knows Hun, nothing happens in this town without everyone knowin, it aint that big. I begin to cry and tell her the whole story, how well it was going and what happened today. She sits there patiently, listening, occasionally nodding. Its getting dark, I realize it is way past closing time, I get up and apologise for keeping her, she says no matter, no problem, sit talk some more, I look like I need it. I finish telling all the gory details, maybe because I had no one else to tell and sometimes it is easier to talk to a relative stranger and maybe because she had offered me kindness and understanding before. She looks at me and says Yeah, you blew it, shes going to be making her way home. She gets up and puts the chair around the right way and under the table, indicating that the conversation is finished, thats it ? Is that all she has to say ? I stand looking at her waiting. Eventually.
Nicky : Bette, you cheated on your wife, who followed you have way around the world and who is five months pregnant, you start getting things a bit better and you unload verbally and then try and force her into *****
Bette : Hang on, that is not quite what happened. I would never have done that
Nicky : Bette, are you kidding, your wife believes you would have done that and your actions suggest you would have done that. Its time you get honest with yourself about all this Bette. Bette, you do not grab people when you dont get what you want, you dont force people to do things they do not want, you dont accuse them of things when you dont get your own way. Bette, how do you think Tina feels, do you respect your wife Bette, because your actions do not say that you do
In my head I replay what happened today and I start to see it through Tinas eyes. It is only then I understand the enormity of what I have done. Jerkyll and Hide, grabbing Tina, pushing her down onto the table, accusing her of teasing me and being mean about Helena. Things begin to look different. I knew that some of what I had done was wrong, that Id gone too far but until then I dont think I really got it. I dont know how long I stood there processing but Nicky had stopped talking. I Looked at her and asked if I could take the beautiful flowers, I offered to pay but she wouldnt have it. She wished me good luck, figured I need it.

I made my way into the pub and asked the man behind the bar for Tinas room number. He told me there are only two rooms, shouldnt be hard to find but he also said she was up there. I climbed the stairs, flowers in hand to apologise to this woman I loved. I knew she would leave soon and I didnt want her to go thinking I was a monster.
Bette : I knock on the door. Tee, Tee, its me Bette. I dont expect you to open the door. I came to apologise. I know you are probably tying to get home. I didnt want to leave things like this, Tee can you hear me ? I will just leave these out by the front of the door here. I put the flowers on the ground with a note on a napkin that simply said Sorry, you deserve better, Im sorry Tee. I made my way down the stairs, no answer, not a sound, not that I blame her. As I get near the bar, the barman waves me over. He tells me my friend asked him to give me these if I came in. Keys, the car keys and the Tinas set of keys to the shack.