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    Forever means forever…

    Story written on September 20, 2006 by Seahurst.
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    Story Shortlink: https://lesfan.com/?p=62496
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    The moment she felt Tina’s presence leave, a thick blanket of darkness descended onto Bette, so penetrating in its depth, that those close to her, even though they too had been devastated, feared that she wouldn’t be able to find a path out of the blackness she floated in for months after the accident.

    That’s why it had been such a surprise when five months later Bette walked into the Planet and immediately caught everyone’s attention. The dark pallor that had hung on her was gone. There was a spring in her step. She even had her trademark smile beaming across her face. The gang was so taken with her appearance that the words filtering through her smile almost got lost. "I’m pregnant!"

    Seeing their shocked faces, Bette carefully explained to them all that from the beginning of their relationship she and Tina had shared the same dream. They both had wanted children, not only to fulfill their own desires to be a mother, but to give that gift to the other. Tina had always said that she couldn’t wait to watch Bette with their child, couldn’t wait to see the wonderful mother she knew Bette would be.

    And, even though many believed that Tina’s dream had died with her in the middle of the intersection of Wilshire and Fairfax, Bette felt the truth in every bone in her body…that she still had the ability to make both their dreams come true. It was because of this fierce belief that she made the decision to have their long awaited child, and within days of that decision was lying on a bed in Dr. Wilson’s office.

    Now, here they were, gathered around their friend whose stomach showed every inch of her seven month pregnancy, crying for the woman who would never be able to see the radiant glow that now emanated from the soulful eyes of the one left behind.

    "She would have been so happy to see you pregnant," Kit whispered.

    "She would have loved watching the changes in your body," Alice winked at Bette, smiling.

    "Knowing Tina, she would have loved the whole process of picking out the baby’s name," Shane said, her voice breaking.

    "Yeah," Dana added. "And, she wouldn’t have picked out any of those stupid names that people in LA are always burdening their children with, like Apple or Moxie Crimefighter."

    This caused them all to laugh through their tears. "Moxie Crimefighter? You telling me someone named their baby that?" Kit asked, bewildered.

    "Yeah," Dana rolled her eyes. "I read it in some poll People magazine had…stupid."

    The group of friends were silent for a minute, then Carmen leaned forward, gently placing her hand on Bette’s protruding belly, and whispered, "Do you think she knows?"

     

    ~ ~ ~

    Tina smiled as she reached out to caress the soft white blossoms of jasmine growing all around her garden, breathing in its sweet scent. ‘Yes Carmen, I know,’ she continued to smile.

    She loved working in her garden. A garden that was, for her, the perfect garden. She knew that this was heaven…and that heaven was whatever you dreamed it to be. And, for Tina, working in a garden filled with perfumed plants, including things like herbs, jasmine, eucalyptus, and lots and lots of wild flowers had always given her a sense of belonging. When she worked with the dirt to naturally help create such beautiful things, she knew she was truly a part of nature.

    "I’ve known since the moment of conception," she said out loud, wishing that Bette could feel how happy she was about the baby…how excited she was for Bette, knowing that being a mother had always been one of Bette’s biggest dream. A dream she had not had the courage to share with anyone until the day her beautiful, loving, blonde soul mate walked into her life.

     

    ~ ~ ~

    Bette laid her hand over Carmen’s, giving her a light squeeze.

    "She knows…I can feel it throughout every part of me…she knows."

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    3. If I was at home alone in my apartment, I would be sobbing…wailing even. I’ve got enough eyeball sweat for all of your fans. And on a silly note, “Each making sure they were close enough to be able to touch the woman who had always been the leader of their pack,” I heard “vroom, vroom” right after I read that line.

    7. A chance to read one of your fics from the very beginning! Because of your rep, you are on my very long list of authors to read! This was so sad, yet there is also hope in the pending baby! I truly would love to see you continue this soon!

    8. Wow… that was a surprising post…Sidebar, sorta: is it weird that I prefer seeing Tina dead to seeing her straight? Hm. Anyway, fantastically heartwrenching. Can’t wait to see how you finish it.

    15. This is a very sweet story, and I was reading everyone’s heartfelt reactions, and then there was Lament..and I started laughing..ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh!!! I don’t think there was a motorcycle anywhere in this story. Seahurst, I think you should give Lament a time out. Really, this speaks of the beautiful places we all want those we love who have passed, to be.

    16. First, I love your writing but I had this thought for my story and then realised I couldn’t cope if for either one of the girlz to die so canned it…sorry sea I started to read and couldn’t get thru it…can you please write something with them alive and happy or close to happy, please???????

    17. Deeply touching – my partner and I just went through a cancer scare and the thought of losing her scared me deeply – this story touched that nerve and you wrote it beautifully.

    18. You made me cry… I’ve missed your writing so much… I dont drink, but I see so many ppl at the hospital that are a victim of alcohol… Addicted or inflicted, alcohol truely kills when its ab/misused… Tina… Oh T… T.T

    20. Good to see you back seahurst, hope this story doesnt reflect on someone in your life that you loved and lost because of drunk driving. it truly reminds us of how life can be taken away from us in a flash

    23. I was really sad that Tina was no longer walking this earth. Too many have died at the hands of people not just drunk but not paying attention. If I had a wish that it would be for Tina to walk amoung her family and watch them grow.

    25. OMG why did you make me cry? OK. This was yet another touching and like someone else said bittersweet chapter. Although Tina was not there in physical form she’s still there. And the fact that Bette feels Tina will make this a wonderful experience. Now I just read the last two chapters, and I honestly don’t feel like I read something from someone who is having writer’s block. Please continue!

    29. Hey Seahurst, Wonderful to have a new post from you which resulted in my happy dance. Still getting funny looks from folks at work. No caring as immensed in your fabulous fan fiction. That was awsome and heartfelt. You are the mistress of emotion and demonstrate all the senses and feelings that are present. There was a real tenderness and gentleness in this tale. Thank you so much for returning and providing this delightful interlude to my day. Your Loyal Fan.

    30. Some comments crack me up… “Could you please make it a dream?” Of course, I totally share that wish and would love it to be a dream…;)! But I gotta say, even though I hate to have Tina dead, I also think it’s very beautiful to explore what would become of Bette and the emotions felt on both sides… Of course, nobody wants it to happen, but isn’t it simply amazing to explore that possibility, even if only for the beauty of the emotions? … And I’m certainly glad that you, Seahurst are doing it! I love the title and hope that this leads to forever! Thanks a lot…

    36. Thank you for the heartfelt story that evoked many emotions….sadness and happiness. It was wonderful to see a post from you – please grace us again with another chapter.

    37. I thought of all the 9-11 children, born after their fathers had perished. Death doesn’t have to be an end. Love is more real that the very earth we stand on, or the air we breathe. Love is the context for everything we know and feel. Death is but one moment in an entire existence full of meaning and experiences, and you handled that moment with lightness. Your focus is on the love, and love is eternal. Looking forward to the next chapter! Thanks!

    40. Hey where did my comment go? To Tina’s paradise per half..lol. Here i go again…Heart wrenching and just achingly beautiful is all I can remember. Glad you dust off those blocks and return posting. Thank you!

    41. I love your writing…I am a little sad for Tina to be dead…can this turn into a dream or something…maybe Tina can be in a coma from the accident and Bette is having a dream of what could have happened…just like I hope they bring Dana back in season 4…it’s too heavy.

    43. Soon as I read the words “since tina death” I pause for at ten minutes eyes close in all, scared to go b on reading…I cant take this sadness

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