Tina: yeah I love him, I really do.. but I guess it’s more like a brother-sister relation. Every time I say I love you to him I have those second thoughts about what it means and if it’s worth it to stay together. I guess I’m just afraid to give myself completely to him.

Bette: I understand.. it’s scary.. my first time was with my high school crush and I will never forget it.. It was a disaster! But we laughed about it later and we still are good friends. It can be nice to just have sex with another person.. but I think your first time is something special.. it’s the moment you decide to give your whole being to another person and give up some control.. it’s one of the mile-stones in life.

Tina: exactly! And I just don’t feel comfortable enough to give it to Eric

Bette: maybe you just have to wait for that person for who you would break up with Eric in a second (winking)

Tina: I hope that someone comes by soon (smiling)

Tina: and you? Still fighting with Harry about his sex drive?

Bette: yeah I guess our relationship isn’t that perfect either.. the day you saw us here in the parking lot.. Remember? We fucked half of the day.. it’s nice, but that’s not the only thing in a relationship.. I want things he can’t give me because he simple doesn’t know me that well.. I want someone who knows me inside out, who thinks with me and who shares my values.

Tina: basically my criteria for a relationship too

Bette: so technically you say you have too little sex in your relationship because you don’t want to give that side of you to Eric and I have too much sex in my relationship and Harry doesn’t know the other side of me that well.. We both realise that we don’t have a perfect relationship and that it wouldn’t last if someone better comes along..

Tina: yes.. wow that’s some serious stuff you know. It’s the first time I speak with someone about my relationship and that crappy sex life we’re having.

Bette: yeah I know it’s hard to speak about it, but I feel very secure and comfortable around you (smiling her Porter smile) My friends never liked Harry so I just don’t like talking about him with them.. only when I have something really big going on, like that fight in his dorm, I come back to them and they will help me. Alice always says that Harry fucked my brains out so I can’t think anymore about leaving him..

Tina: haha I just love that girl, so sweet (laughing)

There was another silence between them.. both now in thought about their relationships

Tina: god.. I have so much going on in my head right now.. maybe we should call it a night and just go on that date tomorrow night? See how it goes, when you need to talk again.. you have my number and I have yours (smiling sweetly)

Bette: thanks Tee

Tina: aahw.. I like how you call me!

Bette: I’m sorry it just slipped out, but alright, from now on, you are my Tee! You’re right, let’s call it a night and tomorrow night we go drink something together, relax and have fun. We should dance again, I really enjoyed that last time (giving her another Porter smile)

Tina: alright, we have a date!

tbc