Part 16

Breaking the Silence: Part 2

It was the same familiar place that bore witness to many sad stories that each sexually abused victim experienced in life for so many years. It was the same room that heard the many cries, frustrations, anger and hatred by individuals whose innocence were stolen and it was the same room where Tina Kennard first told all the dirty and evil things that her aunt did to her when she was a little child.

 Lisa— How are you?

Tina—I’m okay, thank you

 The doctor recognized the subtle change in the blonde and took it as a good sign

 Lisa—You’re welcome. You know why you are here?

Tina—Yes

Lisa—Good, tell me why you are here Tina?

Tina—I’m here because I want to break my silence

Lisa—Silence from what?

Tina—From all of the evil things that had happened to me

Lisa—Last time that we were here we’ve talked about Veronica sexually abusing you and how it affected your life as your grow up but we’ve barely scratched the surface and I feel that there are still things that we have to put on the table

 Tina sighed

 Tina—Yes, I believe so

Lisa—Remember what I’ve told you after our first session?

Tina—Yes, you told me to write on my journal everything that had happened on our first session what I told myself and the things that I felt

Lisa—Did you do all of those things? Is that why you have your journal with you right now?

Tina—Yes

Lisa—That’s good. After reading to me your journal, we’ll talk in details the effects of the abuse in your life and the relationship that you’ve had all these years whether romantically or sexually. I want you to also elaborate this statement further…

“The abuse took away my power and control and I hated that feeling. I told myself that I don’t want to be powerless and helpless again. Men are easy, all they want is sex and when I found out how sex can give me power over them, I became promiscuous. I only had sex with men, younger men, older men, same age, whatever… it became my own way of coping, which also helped me block those dark memories. I loved the feeling and knowing that I can play them, manipulate them and make them do what I want, I felt invincible and it was fucking addicting to me”