While I waited I checked email again, and no reply from Gina, but I emailed her again anyway. I played music and surfed the net to kill time. Bette came home first and as expected she came home carrying something for us. This time it was Il Divo latest album for me, flowers for Tina, Renee got that mp3 player she wanted and Aiden got a new mitt for baseball. Although I really liked my present I had to put my foot down. “Mom you don’t have to buy us presents as some sort of penance for your affair. What happened between you and mom in the past is just that, the past”

“Its just th” She tried to explain. But I interrupted.

“I was curious and I was angry and disappointed. But I also understand that it was a mistake and what’s important is that mom forgave you and we cant be happier as a family.”

“I know.” She sighed, “But I haven’t forgiven myself.”

“Well we can’t help you there. And I’m sorry I brought it up. I guess I didn’t realise how much pain will resurface by my being nosy.”

She hugged me, “Mmmm something smells good.”

“Yeah I made dinner.”

“Great. I’m starved. Did mom call?”

“No. Um mom?” I followed her to her room. “I need to ask you something.”

“What’s that?”

“Well it’s about Gina.”

“Uhuh?” She asked cautiously.

“No no it’s not that kind of question.” Her expression of relief was evident.  “Well she’s in Sudan and I know she will be busy and all but I send her emails and she hasn’t replied. And she said she would check her emails. Maybe she’s realised that she doesn’t want a little high school girl.”

“Sweetie, don’t think like that maybe she’s just busy. How long it’s been a week?”

“Yeah.”

“Come here.” She hugged me. “Bet you by the weekend you’ll from her. I’m sure everyone wants some of her time.”

“I guess.”

A few days later.

As mom promised when I went to check my email, there it was, finally she responded.

“I am so sorry I haven’t replied to your emails. Last week was so hectic, all my family here and in Senegal wanted to see me. So I spent most of last week in Senegal. My aunt doesn’t have a pc. She’s one of those back to nature people so I had no access to modern technology. I miss you so much. Angie these past few days without any contact with you was the hardest time for me. I never thought I would find myself missing someone I have never been with, if you know what I mean. Our only intimate time was when we kissed. I never said this to you but I felt more in that brief moment that I have in anytime with someone in my life. I don’t want to scare you by saying this but I have been thinking about you and what it would be like to make love to you. Or just feel you close to me. I want to see you when I get back home. Maybe I can convince Tristan to take a trip home before we start school. I’m not saying that if I come it will be for that, I just want to see you that’s all.

Anyway enough about me. How are you? I’m glad your mom is warming to the idea of you with a college girl as she put it. I’m sorry about what happened to your moms before you were born, but I know you may not want to hear this but what happened between them should have been left just between them. I mean what if in years to come when we are old and our kid wants us to air our dirty laundry. Anyway I have to cut this short. I just wanted email you before I leave tomorrow. I should be back home late tomorrow night so I’ll call you on Monday. Be safe and I’ll be missing you till I can see you.”

Hugs and kisses

G” 

I read that email over and over. I can almost recite it word for word. And the part about it I really really like was the part about making love and our kid.