We give too little credit to our mind. It is found that physically we do not need rest. Why the need for sleep then? It is our minds that require those hours of break. Hours of rest just because…  When an athlete trains, their minds are being tested just as much if not more then their bodies. The same thing applies to everyone. Sometimes we think of how our body have tire, how our bodies are severed and even how it id abused but how often do we think of the psychological implication first hand. Only when we’ve tried everything in out power to treat our hurt bodies do we realize that it’s not a physical issue. Some things just hurt from within. From our early years we are taught certain patterns of socialization- what is acceptable and what is considered deviance. As a child Bette was taught the value of confidence by her father. “Chin up and head forward, Elizabeth…” That was the only memory left of her absent father in her mind.

Confidence or some would say arrogance was and always will be part of his charm as well as his flaw. She knew deep down that his confidence is only a shield he uses to mask what he really felt inside. Self doubt comes hand in hand with confidence. No one is exceptional to this fact. Often we find people that push themselves too much. They have this mindset that they have to be strong, mentally if not physically. Stoicism embodies them as they continue to hold onto the warped image of strength. They are misunderstood as unfeeling. These people are painted as arrogant when the truth is the total opposite. Hard shells are only built to cover the soft insides. Like snails that would sludge their way through life. Life is a struggle.

When the mind shuts down, does the body search from deep within? Or does it build its own memories?

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“Kit, tell us. Just tell us what’s wrong? Where’s Bette?” Alice began choking up. She held onto Kit’s arms and started to pull her blouse with desperation. Her hands trembled. They have been trying to get Kit to talk for hours already since her outburst at Tina yesterday and now it seems to be the breaking point for Alice.