“What!  She was marrying your cousin?”

Tina nodded

“I’m so sorry Tina, but I mean you were gone for almost 2 months, what did you expect… but… man your cousin that was harsh”

“I know, I know looking back I should have been back sooner but I let things in New York take over my life and I was stubborn, but I never stopped loving her Jess never she was always on my mind in my thoughts, I took it for granted that she would just wait I know that was my mistake but I honestly thought our love was that strong.”

“I know Tina but 2 months, why didn’t you fight for her?”

“I came back, I actually high jacked her limo on her wedding day, gave her a ring I had in my purse for weeks, I told her I loved her with all my heart and I asked her to  marry me”

“You did” Jessica felt a little pang of jealousy

“I did, that’s when she told me she was pregnant with my cousin’s baby, and that’s why she had to get married.”

“Oh… Tina I’m so sorry” Jessica held her close

“She told me she was at a bar drinking, she was missing me and Justin  had a meeting there with a client and happened to run into her on his way out they drank together and woke up together the next morning.”

“Wow, that’s some pretty heavy stuff ” Jessica said

“Wait…wait it gets better” Tina chuckled

“I told her it didn’t matter she didn’t need to get married, I told her I wanted to take care of not only her but the baby as well, she turned me down I left her, but I wasn’t done yet I drove to the church I was so sure of the loved I had for her and the love I knew she had for me that I was stupid enough to think that if she saw me at the church she wouldn’t be able to marry him, I locked eyes with her as I heard her uttered the words that broke my heart that made me never want to be in another relationship…I DO”

Tina let out a breath

"God for that first year I was in New York I was such a mess, looking back I don’t know how I made in through I buried myself in work working 12 hour days traveling every chance I got I worked my self to a point of exhaustion trying not will myself not to think about her about my cousin he was living my life with the woman I loved."

“And that’s why I dated and slept around in New York to forget about her to dull the pain I had in my heart, I worked hard and played harder, until I met you”

Tina smiled

“You are the first real relationship I’ve had since her, and even though we agreed on just having fun no promises, I’ll still have a place in my heart for you, you made me feel normal again.”

Jessica smiled

“I really am going to miss you Tina”

“I’m going to miss you too Jess, more than you know”

Tina kissed the top of Jessica’s head as they closed their eyes for a short nap.