“One day I came home I was stressed you know Melvin’s a real dick he had always pushed me but after we lost the baby he just seemed to push more, push harder, I got home poured myself a double whiskey I took out all my frustration out on her I wanted to pick a fight with her, get a stir out of her I needed to know what she was feeling what she was thinking, anything I think at the point we knew it was over but we were too afraid to say anything but I’m sure we both wanted out.”

Tina remained quiet.

“I asked her how long it took her to call you after she lost the baby, I accused her of being happy she lost our child, since that meant she could finally be with you”

“You did what!” Tina shouted

“I know, Tina, I know, I was horrible I didn’t realize until I spoke to Bette that  the only thing holding her together keeping her from falling apart was that baby, I didn’t know how much she needed the baby.”

“I’ve already apologized to her, Tina don’t look at me like I’m some kind of a monster”

“She never once called me, I never once in three years spoke to her not until a week ago, I never knew any of this, why didn’t anyone tell me?” Tina sadly said

“We both said some pretty horrible things to each other, If  I had known you weren’t by her side helping her I would have made the first move, to at least be her friend to help her support her help her through the tough times, instead I left I left her behind to deal with Melvin on her own, but I had to leave I felt like I was loosing a bit of me everyday I stayed there, she wouldn’t talk to me, work was hell, mom dad were back home the only other person I could ever to talk to was you and well, you had disappeared.”

Justin paused

“I thought for sure she would call you go back running to you, I thought, I hoped you would take care of her take her away from her life…love her”

“That’s not the way Bette works Justin, she does what Bette does best she buries herself in work, she’s not one to ask for help never was, she’s very stubborn”

“Yeah she is”

They talked for awhile longer before Justin said he had to leave, by the time Justin left, they had agreed to try and be friends once again, he was the only family she had left she understood better now why Justin did what he did. Yes she was sill angry and bitter, but she too was going to try and forgive and forget.

Tina sat motionless on her couch for what seemed like forever thinking Tina couldn’t help but feel angry, angry at her friends for not telling her the situation Bette was in, angry at Bette for not trying to reach our to her, angry at herself for not being there, for running for not being brave enough to try and at least be a friend.

Tina needed answers and she was going to get it one way or another she thought about calling Bette, but quickly decided against it she needed someone to tell her the whole story she refused to put Shane in the middle though she knew Shane and Bette had developed a close friendship, she decided to call Kit.