After a while, of just watching Bette Tina spoke.

“B, are you ok?”

Bette didn’t respond

“Bette” Tina said again gently squeezing her hand.

Bette turned and looked into Tina’s eyes. Tina saw the sadness. Bette turned and looked back the children as they played.

“For weeks after I lost the baby I used to go sit on a bench during my lunch time at the park by your house and watch the children play, sometimes I sat there for hours… I know it sounds strange but somehow it made me feel better, it helped me get through the pain I was feeling the loneliness I felt every day.”

“Kit she saw me once, just sitting there, she asked me why I insisted on punishing myself, she didn’t understand, couldn’t understand, the need I felt to be surrounded by their laughter their happiness in a time in my life when I had none of those things.”

Tina placed her arm around Bette’s shoulder and brought Bette close to her, Bette hesitated a while before she finally gave into Tina’s warm embrace she laid her head on Tina’s shoulders and sighed.

No one ever, had understood her the way Tina did, no one could read her thoughts or know at the exact moment what she needed only Tina, and this right here at this very moment as Tina held her was exactly what she needed.

“I can’t imagine the pain you must have gone through” Tina said pulling Bette back so she could look into her eyes, Tina began playing with Bette’s hair.

“I never really knew you wanted to have children” Tina whispered

Bette chuckled

“Neither did I, I mean given the childhood I had I was terrified I would inherit all of Melvin’s control issues, and lack of affection, but the more I thought about the more need over took me, I mean to have this little person in your life who needs you who asks nothing of you except love and affection, I started to look forward to being a mom, I never even really thought about having kids, a home or sharing my life with, with anyone except…you” Bette whispered the last part.