Finally alone and shielding the door with her own back, Shane inhales and exhales. Slowly, repeatedly.
Her heart is bumping into her chest. She has never felt so uncomfortable before. Never.
Before her eyes, Jenny’s face after seeing her going down on Nikki.
Into her mouth, the unpleasant taste of a woman she was fucking for no justifiable reason.
Into her ears, useless words.
“What are you doing?”.
The answer, of course, was: Nikki. Ahah.
Shane grimaces.
“I swear, I am your friend”.
“I thought that we…”.
“Jenny…”.
“I am your friend”.
“No….No, Shane… You know what. This is the ultimate betrayal. You’ve broken my heart”.
And that look. That look into her eyes.
Unforgivable and unbearable.
Shane swallows, trying to keep her calm. Her forehead is sweating.
She goes straight to her closed and opens it, grabbing a bag and throwing it on the bed.
Then, she stops. She rests her hands on her hips and tries hard to hold back the tears.
What did I do. My whole world is turned upside down.

”I’m taking her home with me all dressed in white
She’s got everything I need pharmacy keys
She’s falling hard for me I can see it in her eyes
She acts just like a nurse with all the other guys”

“That was the girl you told me about last night…”, Carmen states taking a glance at the closed bathroom door – Nikki’s shelter.
Jenny nods.
“Yeah. I think she’s waiting for Shane to get the fuck out”.
“Are you guys trying to fix things?”.
Jenny sighs.
“We’re doing what we can. We’ve been talking for hours. But I don’t know how’s gonna end, honestly”.
“Do you want to know how Shane is?”, Carmen asks, nonchalantly.
Jenny shakes her head.
“No. I don’t give a shit about how she is doing right now. She didn’t give a shit about I was doing last night. Fuck her”. Her tone is disappointed, shaking.
Carmen exhales slowly.
“You know Jen… I really think that this trip to New York will help. It will help you and even Shane”.
Jenny nods towards Carmen.
“What about you?”.
“I don’t need help”.
Jenny narrows her eyes.
“Don’t you?”.
Carmen shakes her head and not a single muscle on her face moves.

”Say hello to all the apples on the ground
They were once in your eyes but you sneezed them out while sleeping
Say hello to everything you’ve left behind
It’s even more a part of your life now that you can’t touch it”**

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SOUNDTRACK:
* “Gravity” (A Perfect Circle)
** “The Nurse Who Loved Me” (A Perfect Circle)