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    Hindsight – Chapter 21

    Story written on January 28, 2007 by Jobadge.
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    Bette Porter: I inhaled deeply… familiarising myself with the aroma that was just so her…

     

    I held her tightly as her emotions let go, the build up of our conversations of the morning, her time away from us as she collected Angelica’s clothes, and when she returned, her confession that she had seen the photographs in the visor of my car.

     

    Our short time in Angelica’s bedroom had held so much tension, the thoughts and feelings from us both had been a lot to bare, my earlier feelings of today being an emotional rollercoaster was being confirmed as each and every hour of the day passed, we had promised that today would be about spending time with each other and Angelica, putting aside all the emotional baggage that we carried between us for the time being…, but it kept rearing its ugly head, from both sides there seemed to be things we said and did that brought the situation of our estrangement and its reasoning to the fore…

     

    Her arms wrapped around me tighter as her tears continued, I had held her so many times like this in the past, and even this morning we had held one another as our emotions had spilled forth, but for now…, it was all about her…, I could put aside the need for those answers to the questions I had asked, I’m sure there would be other opportunities, maybe even later…

     

    I felt her bury her face in my neck, my own arms tighten around her at the action and I must admit to a smile crossing my features, I turned my head slightly, my nose being tickled by the blonde hair brushing my face, I inhaled deeply… familiarising myself with the aroma that was just so her… I hadn’t forgotten it, not in the slightest, it tormented me every single day…, but I wanted to inhale the smell, fill my lungs with the actuality of it, not just recall it from my memory…

     

    My hands were on her back, my fingers splayed as I gently rubbed her back to soothe her, it had worked in the past, there wasn’t any reason it wouldn’t work now…, granted we were at a different place in our lives, but she was allowing me to comfort her in a time of need…, just as she had done for me this morning…

     

    I felt her sobs easing and I drew back slightly, I rest my chin on the top of her head and close my eyes at the feelings of closeness we shared, our estrangement didn’t seem to matter…, if there was any doubts that anyone may have wondered whether we still cared about one another, now was the time to confirm those deep feelings would never go away…, regardless of our situation, if one of us was in distress the other would be there to provide comfort… No matter what…

     

    “Are you okay…?” I whispered to her.

     

    I felt her nod against my neck, before hearing a sigh escape her lips…

     

    I lean back and look to her face, the tear stained face… I gently brush the tears away from her eyes with my thumbs, I felt her hands at my waist as we stood facing one another…

     

    "You know… this morning… when we both said that it would be okay…?”

     

    “Yeah…” she quietly replied.

     

    “It will be T… it’ll be okay…” I gently place a kiss upon her forehead, keeping my lips against her skin for more than a second before speaking once again… “why don’t we get Angie ready and go to the park…?”

     

    “Okay…” she smiled weakly at me.

     

    I felt the melting sensation inside me when she smiled, I had to take a deep breath as I turned to begin getting us ready for our afternoon in the park.

     

    “Bette…”

     

    “Yeah…?” I turned as she said my name.

     

    “Those questions you asked me…”

     

    I swallowed the lump that seemed to immediately appear in my throat as she said the words, I just looked at her, nodding slightly in acknowledgement of her words.

     

    “The answer is no… to both questions…”

     

     

     

     

     

     

     
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    Comments

    1. What was the question? Oh, yeah. And so nice to see an author crushing the competition to be first to comment. It is, after all, of cosmic importance. I’d hate to see what you’d stoop to on the athletic field or in a nice friendly party game. Well, at least Tina made a start (JUST a start, little Miss One Page). And I’m sure you’ll be glad to know the sweatshirt cleaned up nicely, although I was so upset I couldn’t even spell Tikka properly. And Jo, I can’t wait to see your plan unfold.

    2. this was a really short chapter considering that most of it was from the previous one, so does this mean you will “right” this “wrong” of is this it. Thanks.

    3. Yay! Finally, Tina! I think Bette needed to feel that she has the strength to support Tina. Tina needed her at that moment… and she was capable of being there for her *sigh*… such a wonderful turn of events. I know you have complete control over this storyline… I have faith, Jo. Thanks!!!

    6. another wonderful chapter from you J — can i just say that i appreciate your techinque of repeating parts of the last chapter so i can follow what both characters are thinking on the same scenario. otherwise being a bear of very little brain i have to go back and re-read the previus chapter again. you are ever the genius my clam like chum — so did you find out if you had any pirates in your family tree — all those looters on that beach down there must have had you itching !!! a wonderful chapter buddy — and being first on your own chapter is behaviour which would not appeal to Dean Porter — looks like she’d go for me first – i made her president after all xxx

    7. Thank you for finally letting Tina answer Bette’s questions truthfully. I know it’s so hard for them, but they must learn to communicate with each other…this will be the key to them finding their way back to each other. I love this story and love the updates…please keep them coming!

    8. Perfect cliffhanger! I really think that there was nothing more to add for the time being. After all, wasn’t it the perfect (temporary) ending to a perfect “moment” between them at this stage of the process…? But again, who knows what “The Plan” foresees for the next update?… Stay tuned for the next of “Hindsight”!…

    9. Tina finally told Bette that she was not happy. Does that make Bette sadder that Tina is not happy but at the same time does it make Bette happy and gives her hope. Now just get rid of Henry (in a nice way if necessary) and have them start off sharing time with Angelica as a family.

    10. Bette will be sad to know that Tina is stil unhappy and that all of this has not been worth it. But allow Tina to tell Bette that she can be happy if she is back with Bette and then it will have been worth it.

    11. Hey Jo, as said Kword75 it was the perfect cliffhanger. You write this story beautifully and this is why we keep telling yout that we want moooore! ;) Well done, brilliant writer!

    12. Well now that Tina has admitted to Bette that she is not happy and it was not worth leaving her for Henry, that should make Bette feel happy…NOT! It’s fantastic that Tina is being honest about her feelings but if I were Bette I’d be hopeful at the possibilities of another chance with Tina & angry at the time lost with my daughter. I really wish these chapters were longer. One page at a time is slow torture. I bet your loving every bit of it, aren’t you? LOL! PPS.

    14. First off, glad that you were first. It bugs me when a reader posts first and hasn’t read the story. They just want to be first. Secondly, your writing and unfolding of a story that doesn’t have many locations is unparalleled on this site.Thirdly, the L3 convention is to be in Blackpool, England. How would you describe that city, town? Please be honest. And PPS.

    18. Finally Tina find the courage to answer that question and i think that strong she got by the closennes with Bette, she was, is and will be her rock. wonderful chapter J thanks so much

    21. Okay, we know the need and the want to comfort each other is still there. Tina finally stated the obvious. No she is not happy, and no it was not worth it. But maybe it was. Just maybe she had to do what she did to bring her back to Bette. Now we just need to get them to the next level. Knowing the only thing that will make Tina happy, and be worth it is being with Bette.

    22. I love this story Jo. Your writing is so awesome. I love the way you write the story from both of their perspectives. I think it is the only way to really understand each of their thoughts and emotions in totality. I’m glad Tina finally “spelled it out” for Bette and told her flat out that no, she is not happy. When Tina told Bette a few chapters back “I…don’t want…to be lost to you…” I thought she was telling Bette then that she wanted their life together back again. And I vote that Tina turn off her cell phone since Henry had the audacity to hang up on her. Please post soon!!!

    23. There is so much truth to the adage in all in your prospective. The different prospectives of the same scene is intensely facinating. These two who can never seem to get thier wires uncrossed seem to fall into each other even when their are miles and miles apart yet on the same page. It is a testiment to why they fell apart yet also why they stayed togethter so long. It’s more then what they say, it how they say it in thier voices, movements and actions. For two people so intune they definately hit sharp notes when they sing together. Thanks Jo for writing this chorus of thoughts. Please continue your I am so hoping for the chorus to be a heavenly experience. Thanks

    26. Holy cow!!!!! Bette’s head must be on overload after hearing that answer. That was great, just as I imagined we had to wait several chapters before hearing Tina’s thoughts….BANG you deliver again!!!

    29. HOLY CRAP woman, you did it again, here I am, jsut minding my own bussiness, and WHAM, I see youve posted in my absence ;) so I start to read, anticipating on this emotional rollercoaster you allways put me through, only to find out its impossibel… tears again, my friend, caused by your words, but there is faith that you will make it right, and the words that made me cry, are just a start…

    32. Great chapter..its so right that no matter what happens between them they find themselves always there for each other…with or without words they comfort each other…

    33. Hey! No Fair Me First! ;) Another gem you got there Jo ! Beautifully written and I am so glad that Tina had the courage to answer the questions Truthfully :) and I am even more happy that her answers were “No” . yay ! go TiBette !! :D Thanks for writing this wonderfully touching story . cant wait to read moreee . pps ! :)

    36. I get swept away everytime I read this story. I have to reread the last chapter I read to be able to read the next. Great writing. I wouldn’t have answered the phone either. It does add to the drama though!

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