Jenny was sitting on the floor in Shanes room. In her hand she was
holding the little cellophane baggy that Rex had given them. So this
is cocaine, she said.
Shane was rummaging through the top drawer of her dresser. Yup, thats cocaine, she replied.

And you like doing it? Jenny asked.

Shane pulled out a razor blade and a small mirror, then shut the drawer
and turned around. Yeah, I do but its not for everyone.
Jenny frowned. She had a feeling that Shane was about to begin the
process of trying to talk her out of doing it. I just want to try
something new Shane.

Shane picked up her trash can and looked inside it, checking that it
was empty. It was. She set it face down in front of Jenny and put the
mirror on top of it. Thats not a good reason to do it.

Is there really ever a good reason to do coke, or any other drug for
that matter? Jenny demanded, unable to hide the irritation from her
voice.
Shane didnt answer right away. She sat down on the floor across from
Jenny and motioned for her to hand over the baggy. Jenny gave it to
her. Shane opened it and poured some of the white powder onto the
mirror. She stared at it for a moment.  No. I guess not.
Jenny nodded. Alright, then dont judge me for wanting to do it.
Im not. Shane said. I just – I dont want you to do something that
youre gonna regret.
Jenny softened a little. She knew that Shane was just trying to protect
her, and she loved her friend dearly for that, but it didnt change the
fact that what she wanted more than anything was to stop thinking about
that guy in the bar. All she had to do was close her eyes and she could
see his face, feel his touch
A memory, thats all it was, but with that one came more. She wasnt
even sure that the memories were real, but ever since the other night
she couldnt stop them from filling her head. Bits and pieces of her
childhood kept flashing in her mind. Things that she hadnt remembered
before, but that now seemed as real as the sting of that mans hand.
Maybe snorting coke wasnt the best way to deal with it. Maybe it was
self-destructive and in the end would only hurt her more, but at the
moment she didnt care. For one night she just wanted to forget.
Shane, its what I want to do.
Shane stared at her. It wasnt what shed been hoping Jenny would say,
but it was what shed been expecting. She sighed. Okay. After
dividing the powder into three lines, Shane pulled two bills out of her
back pocket and rolled them up. Here. She handed one of them to
Jenny.