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How could you forget us? Chapter 21
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“Helena please come back to LA with me. I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want you to stay. That may be selfish of me. But I’m being honest. Come home with me. I know this is where your family is. I know you have an amazing opportunity, but your home is there. We are your family there too. You would be missed and if nothing else matters Angelica loves you too. You are her Mummy Auntie Lena. How could you leave her?”
Helena hugged Bette to her chest for awhile then pulled her head to look her in the eyes. “How I love you. I want to give you an honest answer. Can I tell you after the meeting today?”
Bette began to pull apart the robe Helena was wearing and nibbling on her breast.
“Make love to me. Let me show you what your real choice is.”
“Are you saying my choice is over you? If I stay then we are over?”
“Helena I think when it comes down to it, it’s not about Angelica or Peggy or the Peabody Foundation. It’s about whether you want to build a life with me. If you want to be with me then your decision is easy.”
“Bette, nothing about you is easy and this decision is not just about you.” Helena got off Bette’s lap. “I have to get ready for my meeting.”
Bette grabbed her arm to stop her from leaving, “Helena I didn’t mean it that way.”
Helena looked angrily and Bette’s arm that was restraining her, “Yes you did. You seem to think the sun rises and sets for you. My world does not always revolve around you.”
Bette slid her hand down to hold Helena’s, “Baby, I know it’s not just about me. I’m sorry. I’m getting desperate and frustrated and…fuck it. I just want you. I want us to be together. I want to get back what we had. So I’m fucking sorry if I can’t find the right words to tell you this but that’s what I want. I flew out here to do my best to convince you to forgive me, to ask you to be with me and to get you to come home. But I don’t know how to reach you and I keep saying fucking stupid things because I guess I’m just fucking stupid. So there. That’s it. I’m fucking stupid.”
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Gosh that whole “trading me in for a new model” line was recently asked by Ness to me last week, when we were talking about how I have a high level of stimulation (NOT JUST in a sexual way, LOL) for things in life. I have that intensity about me to crave the adrenilin rush, to take on multiple tasks and feed off of it. She joked and said “just be sure that you don’t get bored and trade me in for another model!” It was too damn cute. I assured her it wouldn’t happen. OKAY, back to the story. Well woman, what can I say? You again did the push and pull! LMAO! You have created quite the struggle between Helena and Bette. Poor Bette is torn between the love of her life and her daughter. OUCH! Gotta say that Helena needs to give Bette a little time, be supportive and all. The fact that Bette went to be with Helena, has to show Helena that she cares an awful lot about her, and wants them to work. Now Helena just needs to me creative and think of ways they can both make it work. Heck Helena, your feet aren’t firmly planted. Take Bette back to Angelica and live there. Hello? If I were Helena, I would feel floored to think Bette left so much to show me the depth and seriousness of her feelings. BUT, I would then need to remember that Bette’s daughter comes before anything else, and if my feet were not firmly planted, then you pack up and UHAUL it back to little Angie~ See…simple. LOL!! Thanks Squirl, you’re and awesome writer.
I think I held my breathe from pages 5 to the end of 6. That argument was intense, and very well written. Can’t wait for the rest. Good show!!
exactly, helena…why are you guys fighting…oh please, you two just love each other…what a roller coaster and typically I don’t like roller coasters (they make me sick and my head spins and then I loose my lunch, all the turns, ya know?) but I love this one…pps
now that was pure FABULOSITY…enough said!
Hello Squirl, why are we fighting? cause thats what people in love do, they find ways to avoid the really tough decisions in life so they try to pull and pick at the smaller issues. It is a distraction an avoidance to face the issues that really matter, right know we can see that Helena is slowly beginning to forgive Bette for her transgression, but they need to learn and work on Trust because I think that this is the one thing that is holding Helena back she doesn’t know if she can trust Bette completely and until she can she is going to continue to hold back. It is so very hard to have that someone in your life that you realize you cannot live without, when you are separated you feel like you are not complete and when you don’t trust that person it is just as hard being with them as being apart. For Helena she is being torn in two directions, to give in and risk it, or to leave and learn to live. For Bette it is all about love, she has taught herself because of all the emotional abuse she has went through within her life that to show someone you love them is a physical act and that is what pains her right know she cannot trust her own words to express to Helena how much she loves her, she feels the need to act and make love and Helena is not letting her in, allowing her to wallow in her own belief that she doesn’t really believe in her love. Sincerely, JC
It’s a rollercoaster ride for us all as Bette tries to get Helena back. It’s very interesting that Helena and Pam have become friends of sort, that actually may be good if the two couples stay together. I do wonder if Helena thinks about where her kids live, but maybe it’s normal to her now to have her kids live in NY while she is in LA.
Freakin’ intense!!!!! What a wickedly complex web you have woven. Don’t let Bette forget about Helena’s kids. And what is Peggy going to arrange for her favorite daughter-in-law..a job or move the Peabody HQ to LA? alright as long as Hel’s kids move to…but then what about Winnie…omg…blended families are never easy but this is torture for all.PPS
S that was one fantastic chapter, all the emotions were raw, and loved how Helena had surprised her with Angelica being online so loving,loved how they professed thier love by saying all the faults they have, I can’t wait what happens next,,,,
I love this story! I’m eager to find out what Bette decides to do!! But she shouldn’t forget that Helena had to fight excatly as hard as she had to for her children. please post soon!
Oh my! I feel like i’m on a roller coaster ride w/ mixed up emotions of these two. I’m getting dizzy. What’s up w/ Pam & Helena making this arrangement to be online w/ Angie, although it’s sweet. meaning that they are constantly keeping in touch??? Why are they suddenly close and playing bridges between Bette and Angie/ while T is sound asleep. Wonder if Tina is aware of this so called “friendship” between H&P. Im surprised Bette didn’t snapped at Helena saying the F word having Angie online…. if that was Alice talking, Bette will hang her upside down.. lol…And yessss, Bette is still selfish…. she has to think that Hell has kids in NY….By the way, was Bette forgiven by Helena yet???? I’m just as confused as Bette becoz Hell is “Loveydovey” w/ bette already……Anyway, tnx for posting an interesting story that attracted my eyes…Squirl, hows Pam and Tina by the way? Cheers!!!
Yeah, if they’re on the same page, why *are* they fighting? I think Hels could really run the Foundation from anywhere. No reason she couldn’t do most of the stuff by video conferencing from the back of a limo or wherever she wants. As for the two of them, Helena needs to take the plunge. The rest will work itself out. Besides, she *has* to go back to LA. Angie is expecting her Mummy Auntie Lena for high tea. Great as usual Squirl, thanks.
what an emotional roller coaster have u been taking lessons from IC,lol? it was great that pam let angie talk to mama B and if tina was STILL sleeping her and pam must of had one hell of night! can bette really leave angie…?
So it seems to be a point of view here that because Bette and Helena are parents, they are either not entitled to love or are being incredibly selfish if they want love. My take is, that if they have to live next door to their exes to be part of their children’s lives, or whenever their exes decide to let them be a part of the kids’ lives, or fear that they won’t be part of their kids’ lives if they don’t live next door, they aren’t real parents, they are just visitors. What about shared custody? Why do the exes hold all the cards about the kids?
Yeah, why are they fighting then ? Well, for the sake of drama of course, if there’s no conflict, there’s no drama ! Gosh, you can be so stupid sometimes Helena !!! LOL ! LOL !! This was a great chapter, Squirl. At least, I really really loved it. The only thing I don’t understand is why Bette sooo desperately wants to have sex now. I mean, I can see she’s very confused, worried, frustrated and well… desperate, and that she still can’t see things very clearly as all the recent events happened so fast, but I must say I still can’t see what might lead her to think that sex is going to solve her real problem(s) in the long run. That being said, Helena’s totally right, we love her for weaknesses and her “flaws” as much as for her qualities. And of course, same goes for Helena.
I am so familiar with this pushing and pulling game that Helena is playing with Bette and I can completely understand how lost and confused Bette must feel cause I can tell you from my own experience it drives you crazy. One moment you feel as if you can rule the world and the other minute you feel as if your whole world is falling apart. helena really has to make up her mind what she really wants from Bette although I can understand she’s scared of what is going to happen the next time Bette is feeling horny and is near Tina.Susannah has a great point there :: why can’t they have shared custody? Why can’t the kids live partly with both their moms for a while, I know it will be difficult what school is concerned but the kids do have vacations so why can’t they be with their other parent during those days? That would make things a lot easier and neither parent should have to miss out on the growing up of their children.
awwwww pookies! bette, go to a coffee shop and chill the hell out. helena…now wait, why am i talking to these characters as though they’re real? thats your fault squirl, i blame yooooouuuuu…this story is great:) oh, i was saying, helena is being realy patient and i think that some of what they have is a cultural difference between north american and brit. hehehe, the brit is trying to be all patient and reserved and wait for the best moments to act, and the american is being all firey. which is a good balance so both characters are great. thats my 2cents. more squirl? puleez? :)
Helebette-Is that cultural difference a personal observation? LOL. You don’t have to answer ;-)….Last chappie you all were going to string Bette out for considering leaving Angie. This chappie it seems to be okay. Thank God for the internet and Sykpe Huh!.I do agree on one point, Bette would never “abandon” Angie. Movign to another city is not abandoning. Bette’s mom cut bait and ran. We know Bette would never do that and Helena would never allow her to. Final city of residence to be seen soon enough…..What will our star crossed lovers do….More requests for Pam and Tina, request for Dylan. I see I might have to continue this through the season ;-)