Lets not start this here. Bette smiled, but only to herself. There was this time when they had gone out to dinner. They were smashed, drunk as college chicks. Bette tried to get Tina to have ***** with her in the cab but she refused. She kept saying lets not start this here…no Bette… needless to say it was started it the cab after all but it was finished in their bed. Their bed, not anybody elses.

Tina, can i tell you something?

What? That youre sorry? I heard it, and heard it and now Im sick of it. But Bette shook her head.

No, well i am sorry but thats not it. Tina raised an eyebrow and sat on the nearest bed, giving Bette the go to explain. When i first came out, it was difficult. But i got through it, day by day i made up my mind and i got through it. Bette paused. There were times that i wanted somebody to really love. Somebody to be all to myself. It took so long to happen, because it happened with you. Before you, it was all play. Practice maybe for when i really feel in love. But to be honest i wasnt ready for love. All i wanted compassion without…love. I know it sounds weird, something Shane would say but its true. And you changed by mind, soon all i wanted was you. But there was always a nagging voice in my head telling me that i wasnt ready. Up to now.

Look… But Bette put her hand up.

Let me finish. Bette took a deep breathe. I cheated on you to see if there was any doubt to how much i loved you. Maybe thats not why i did it at first but i promise you it ended up showing me that i could NEVER live my life as happy as you made me. You made my life worth something. You made my life…mine! I wanted you so badly and when we got married i made a promise to never hurt you. And guess what? For seven years i didnt and then one day i did…and i never wanted to! Bette fought back a few tears. Youre the girl for me, youre the woman i love. Youre what makes me, me. Youre what makes my life worth living. With your smile and your passion…i dont want to wake up tomorrow if youre not going to laying there next to me.