They were soon both breathless and Tina pulled away.  Ironically she had been the one desperate to reignite their sexual relationship and now she had to call it to a halt at least until they talked more.  She knew if they returned to WeHo without working through the basic issues between them she could lose Bette for good and she was not going to risk that for anything. She did not have the luxury of time.

                                                                                *****

           “Bette…”

            “Alright…alright let’s talk you know that is my favorite thing to do.”  Bette replied with some consternation.

            “I want you back babe, all of you.  I don’t want to share you or doubt you. Kay is not an issue but Rosanna is.”

            “I will not discuss Rosanna with you.” Bette replied firmly. “What we need to talk about is how we went from zero to sixty in ten seconds flat, crashed and burned.”

            “I don’t think we did that” Tina challenged. “I never stopped loving you and I never will. You never did answer my question, why didn’t you stop me? Couldn’t you see that I have been begging you to come for me since I left?”

            “You are making absolutely no sense Tina.”

            “Think about it Bette. Have I ever given you any indication that I was anything but angry at still being in love with you?”

            “I fought begged and pleaded for you to come back to me.  I didn’t even recognize myself this past year and a half.”

            “I didn’t want you to beg or plead I wanted you to fight and you just gave up.”

            “You have got to be fucking kidding me.” Bette shook her head.

            “No I’m not. When I told you that I was having feelings for men what did you say? You told me that I should explore them and that you wouldn’t promise to be there when I made up my mind.  If you had told me that you were struggling with your feelings for Candace I would have told you to wake the fuck up.  I am your woman and you better start talking about what is really going on. Did you really think that there is anyone for me but you? I need you to wake the fuck up. Why didn’t you fight for me? Why won’t you fight for me now? I am fighting for you with everything I’ve got.  I’m not playing any more games.  I don’t intend to lose.” 

            “I did fight for you.” Bette’s eyes blazed in her anger. 

            “You can blow up all you want Bette, I’m used to it. Tell me… how did you fight for me?”

            “I…I…”  Bette’s eyes opened wide as the realization hit her. “I didn’t then.”

            “I’ve got to know Bette do you still love me?  You fought for me after Candace and with Helena then you just gave the fuck up. Is it too hard? Am I not worth it to you anymore?”