‘Are you going to let me in?’ Jamey asked and Helena moved away from the door and let Jamey in.

Jamey sat down on her bed and Helena stood in front her with her arms crossed.

‘Are you mad at me for kissing you?’ Jamey asked

Helena felt a shock through her body as if she suddenly realized that she really did kiss Jamey and it wasn’t just in her mind.

‘No…. no of course not, I kissed you to’ Helena spoke softly and she stared at the ground.

‘I know it’s not going to make you feel any better but I know how you feel’ Jamey said.

‘And how’s that?’ Helena asked sceptical as if Jamey couldn’t have a clue on how she felt.

‘Confused, confused about your own feelings wondering who you are these days. I’ve felt that and I’m still feeling it’ Jamey said

‘You mean you do know who you are?’ Helena asked in disbelieve.

‘Part, and for some part I also don’t know who I am yet it’s confusing and a part of me doesn’t want to accept who I am’ Jamey said.

‘This is just not me, I.. I’ Helena stared at the ceiling looking for the right words.

‘I never kissed a girl and I’d never imagined myself do it, I mean maybe I was just drunk that night and because I really like you it happened, I cant explain it’ Helena said a bit frustrated.

Jamey looked at the floor and didn’t know what to say.

‘It’s just not me Jamey I’m not like that’ Helena said

‘How do you know so sure? You said you didn’t like the boy’s you were going out with’ Jamey said a little frustrated

‘Because, it could just be the boys here maybe I didn’t find the right one yet’ Helena replied and talked more aggressive. ‘But if that is who you are I’m fine with that’

‘Like what? I am like what?’ Jamey asked and started to get angry

‘You.. you..’ Helena tried to find the words. ‘It appears that for you kissing a girl is quite normal’

‘No it isn’t’ Jamey yelled ‘Don’t you think it’s just as confusing for me as it is for you I just know that I do what feels good to me and it felt good to kiss you back there’

‘I know, It just isn’t who I am’ Helena screamed ‘Let’s just forget about it’

She looked at Jamey and saw tears well up in her eyes.

She turned around and walked to the door

‘Jamey…’ Helena said on a softer tone

Jamey didn’t look back opened the door and went outside.