‘Come on! All the signs where here how could I not notice, you not being satisfied

with the blokes being confused and depressed’ Lucy analyzed.

Helena dropped herself back on her bed and faced the wall .

‘Come on Helena it’s not the end of the world’ Lucy said and she lied behind her one arm around Helena’s waist.

‘I’m not gay Luc, honestly I don’t think I am’ Helena said, in fact she didn’t want to be gay and maybe if she tried hard enough the feeling would go away.

‘Well okay maybe you’re not, maybe you’re bisexual’ Lucy said and Helena turned around and looked at Lucy irritated. ‘All I’m saying is that you should explore these feelings, find out what you really want and who you really are’

Helena stared at the wall and felt a tear roll down her face she hoped Lucy wouldn’t notice.

They just lied there for a couple of minutes and it made Helena feel much better not having to be alone.

‘Helena, you’ve got to accept who you are no one will love you less’ Lucy said and stroked Helena’s hair.

‘Yes they will’ Helena started crying ‘They won’t accept me as there friend anymore I know they will and besides I’m Helena Peabody I need to follow in my mothers shoos as what? A dyke? That’s so not going to happen’ Helena sobbed.

‘Come on Helena people are not as bad as you give them credit for’ Lucy said.

‘I chased Jamey away’ Helena sobbed

‘You what?’ Lucy asked

‘I told here I didn’t mean to kiss her that it was just the alcohol and that it didn’t mean anything’ Helena confessed.

‘But you did feel something?’ Lucy asked.

Helena dried her tears and turned around facing Lucy

‘Yes I did’ Helena spoke softly

‘What did you feel?’ Lucy was dying to know more about this

Helena turned lying on her back facing the ceiling

‘It was like a itch at first but when I kissed her it felt like a fire in my lower stomach I can’t explain, It was unlike anything I’ve ever felt before’ Helena said