Here I am, Alice Pieszecki, sitting on a plane on my way to New York. To start my new life. How did I get here? Was it not three months ago that I was standing in the hospital with all my friends holding baby Angelica. The newest member to our family. That was one of the last happy days for me. It was just one giant downward spiral from there.

            Everyone else around me seemed to be getting their ***** together. Bette and Tina. Shane and Carmen. Even Jenny. The only thing that seemed to be falling apart was me. I was losing hope in mine and Danas relationship the moment that stupid red head walked back into her life. Her life, not our life. That should have been hint number one.

            Dana going to dinner with Lara, made me jealous, but I told myself just let her go. You do not want to seem clingy, let her go. After Angelica was born, there were more dinners. And with each dinner I felt like our relationship was falling apart more and more. I was becoming more insecure about everything. I knew that Dana would never cheat on me, no wait how I can believe that. She cheated on Tonya for me. Whats the difference? Well, Tonya is a cat-killing, to perky for my taste, money hungry, so called person who loved Dana, but really wanted her for her fame. The only difference is that Dana loves Lara, and she was just settling for Tonya. That means if she loves Lara of course she would cheat on me. But I was not going to wait for that to happen. I was not going to wait to get my heart broken. It has happened way to many times. I am tired of people walking all over me. It was time I took charge of when my heart would break.

            So I started to talk to some friends I knew. Said I was looking for a change in scenery. Thats how it happened. A friend of mine got me a job interview with The Village Voice, a magazine in New York. I got the job; all I had to do was tell everyone I was leaving. I had two weeks to tell them, before I left. I was debating even telling them and seeing if they knew I was gone. I figured everyone was so swept up in their own new romances and lives that no one would notice. All the same, I was going to tell. It was not like I was going to pull a disappearing act or anything.