Tina had finally finished her shift, the day had been really tiring both professionally and because of the incident she had with Bette that morning. Helena had been stuck in the operating room for more than two hours, they had promised to see each other at the end of the shift but Tina had already finished for about a good hour and fortunately Monica would be with Angelica longer that evening.

Tina thought about going to Bette, again, despite what had happened she wanted to listen to Helena’s words about Bette. A part of Tina felt hurt, she didn’t really know if Bette didn’t like her presence or if she had just been in a bad mood because of the imminent news of Callie’s pregnancy.

So thinking and thinking Tina found herself in front of the door of Bette’s room, this time no donut, no orange pudding, it was just her.

Maybe Bette would have told her to fuck off this time, but at least Tina would have made her peace with it and would have closed that opening of the matter that also concerned Bette.

She knocked softly, it was after nine by now, Bette could have already fallen asleep, but instead when Tina entered the bed was empty, the covers undone and Bette wasn’t even in her chair by the window.

Tina entered the room slowly and when she saw the light on in the bathroom and the door wide open she didn’t have a good feeling.

”Bette?” She called softly, the second time too, but there was no answer. So Tina took quick steps towards the bathroom door and as expected she found Bette there, she was unable to move, her face pale, her hands in her bangs to support herself, sitting next to the toilet, all this led Tina to an absurd dwelling.

”Fuck Bette…how long have you been here?” Tina rushed to her knees next to the woman who looked at her trying to form a sensible sentence that didn’t come out right away, only a small moan.

”I’m calling 911 right now” Tina grabbed the pager but Bette blocked her hand.

They looked at each other.

”I’m fine, give me a minute” Bette whispered