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Let Me In – 9
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Bette stared at Tina. "What?"
Tina absently played with the towel in her hands. "I don’t want it, but I need it. I need you to file for separation."
"What?" Bette repeated.
"Face it, Bette, this isn’t who we are. Things have changed, in a big way, and we never learned to adjust." Tina shrugged. "We were young when we met. A lot of things have changed. And I’m taking it out on you, which you really don’t deserve."
"What?" Bette repeated once more, still not fully comprehending Tina’s statements.
Tina regarded the brunette. "Bette?"
"We can work this out," Bette managed to choke out.
"I know." Tina admitted. "But you shouldn’t be waiting in the wings."
"But–"
"Babe, let’s just be good mothers to Angelica, okay?" Tina cut in, already beginning to cry. She’d been doing a lot of crying lately, especially after she’d figured out what she had to do. After she’d figured out how far apart she and Bette had become. After she realized just how much she still loved Bette.
"She deserves to have her parents together."
"Not like this." Tina returned. "Bette, I love you. You have to know how much you mean to me. But not like this."
Bette felt gutted. That’s what she felt. Gutted. Like someone had taken a very sharp knife, carved her open, and took out all her insides, leaving her empty and hollow. She knew Tina was right, she’d known for weeks, even months now. But she’d fought it, this was not what she wanted.
But Tina was right. What you want and what you need are two very different things.
"What do you want?" Bette asked in a hoarse whisper, not trusting her own voice.
"Angelica." Tina said simply. "The car."
"What else?"
"Bette."
"What else, T."
"I want you to be happy."
Right.
"So that’s it, separation, that’s your solution?"
"It’s my decision."
"And I don’t get to have any say in this."
"I don’t want us to keep up this charade of being BetteandTina when we’re this unhappy about it."
"So we’re done?" Bette asked gravely. "We’re over?"
"There’s always going to be you and me, Bette." Tina said softly. She approached Bette, and held onto Bette’s hand. "My whole life, I’ve never loved anyone, or anything, else like this. But it’s not just you and me anymore."
Angelica.
Bette pulled out of Tina’s grasp, moving past her, and went to find Angelica, seeking solace in another Kennard’s arms. She knew she was taking the coward’s way out of the conversation, leaving without really resolving anything, but Tina seemed more than capable of figuring everything out herself. And if she couldn’t have Tina, she would settle for the comfort that Tina’s child would offer. She just couldn’t stand there and have Tina tell her she wanted out. It hurt too much to even form words, and so she would be with the Kennard for whom words were not necessary.
Tina watched her go, and sighed. Clearly, this was going to be a whole lot more difficult that even she had anticipated.
tbc
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Glad to be reading your road to denialville.
Then don’t seperate if it is to hard. Tina needs to weigh all of her options before making her finally decisions. If she wants the seperation so badly then she needs to do it and not Bette. Tina will never totally be able to move away from Bette and not just because of Angelica. Bette herself will not be able to move forward either. I hope that you do not follow the show and keep them apart but somehow allow them to work out their differences.
Okay, i’m not so much seeing denialville here, but i’ll just have to trust that we will head there eventually. either way, this is a great story. it will, of course, be much greater once we arrive in denialville.
so sad, i’m crying again…i hope you’ll take a short cut to denialville, my heart can’t take it for much longer
“God blessed the broken road that lead me straight to you.” I honestly believe that’s how it is with these 2 ladies. I’m not sure exactly what you’re doing, TD, but I’ll trust you.
I am so on this train.
ok tiffy wait i dont understand how is seperating gonna make it better? but im gonna trust u n leading them back!!
Tiff_duke, I’d like to purchase a one way ticket to Denialville if you’re driving. I love your writing and this chapter. Yes, what Tina said to Bette broke my heart but I’m going to trust the direction that you’re taking this story. Also, I love the Buffy references.
We are all on the same train with you,Shall we call it The Denialville express? Tina is not going to give in and give Bette a breake.unless its her legs. thanks
“I told you, that isn’t what I want,” Bette answered, annoyed at the audacity of Tina to be caught trespassing and be the one pissed off. Classic. How I wonder where this is going. Denialville …that’s right. Okay Tiff, I’ll hop aboard The Denial Express. Is it possible to be back in time for my yoga class in the morning? ;) Excellent writing…
I don’t think separation is the way to work things out. And I think Tina is a bit selfish here. When she needs Bette, she just said she wanted to go back as a family. When she had other feelings, she said she shouldn’t be around her. Why is there always one person’s decision? You can’t just do what you want and ignore the other’s feeling just because she loves you and is willing to wait. You’ll lose her some day. Maybe that’s what Tina wants. Tina wants a loyal AND popular Bette.
Hi Tiff, I really liked the chapter. But, only a month later, I think there might still be animosity…still things they would haggle about. I’m looking forward to your spin on their struggles.
i’m gonna trust you and stick with this.
I was completely absorbed reading this chapter. Well written and very true to Tina’s state of ambivalence. Please continue.
This is so and hope you will make it right “please”!
Well, I don’t know what to say. This is do sad…”I don’t want it, but I need it. I need you to file for separation.” If this separation is what it needs to bring them back together again (since you’re making this story into the prelude to Pick A Par), then I’ll just hide out in denialville for a little while. Please post again soon. Thank you.
Sorry, that would be “Pick A Part” in my last comments.
All aboard the “Tiff” train! Destination denialville (a suburb of Sunnydale)…
A whole ‘nother house – on the road to Denialville? That’s taking the long way around the barn, Tina.
tiff- you have me crying here at 6:30 in the morning..I think I need a green beer
“”How much clearer do I have to say that I want my family?” Bette asked. “Didn’t you listen to my phonecall?””What, the one where you miss your things, your books, your art, your daughter?” Tina returned. She shook her head. “Yes, Bette, I heard that call. And, well, I wasn’t part of the things you listed.””I loved these lines Tiff.
it’s good be in denialville. u did say this was before ‘pick a part’, right?
I trust you Tiff, Thanks.
As Rodney King once sait “Can’t we all just get along?” Hell, what’s the fun of that? OK, Duke, I’m taking the trip with you. You drive according to your map.
Geez Tina, no kidding it’s going to be hard!! Thanks!
good very good chapter but so sad i have my eyes full of tears. If Tina loves so much Bette then why she want to take the painful street? continue post please