Jules,

What a treat to get your letter. I have missed you so much. I am sorry the circumstances of our communication is under these.
Tina is not speaking to me on any level at all…she hired a lawyer, and is filing for final separation. This has been particularly difficult as I have expressed how sorry I am for my short comings. She is angry, and certainly has every reason to be angry. I just wish she would talk to me. Email, letters, phone calls, face to face anything, but as she did with the miscarriage, she has shut me out. I really feel no purpose in my life right now. I am walking around, lost. I smashed my car up this past weekend, and I called the man I hit a ***** dwarf…now you tell me where you think I am? You know me, never at a loss for words. However, I miss her more then words can express. I guess I just don’t know how to tell her this anymore. I don’t want to push, but she is being so…so….stubborn. It is not a trait I am used to seeing.

Jenny, my wirting neighbor, is now Shane’s housemate. Thye are sharing the house behind mine. She has actually been helpful during this difficult time. She has moved on from her mistakes, and taking responsibility for all her actions. I respect that about her. She is still a little odd, but I guess I am starting to see a little of me in her.

Alice and I had a falling out. However, I think we will be okay. This is hard for her, not wanting to pick sides, but Tina has been staying at her house for the past month. I suppose I was a little rough on Al, but I needed a freind to. You know Alice, always wanting to put in her two cents.

Jules, it brings me comfort to know you are listening and giving me an objective, but fair comments reagarding mine and Tina’s diffucult time. Our future is on the line, but I know if it is meant to be, then we will make it through this.

I miss you Jules.
Bette