“Alice?”

She didn’t had the strength to get up and go home, after all she had seen, she felt drained. And couldn’t think of anything else but Dana. Her heart had never hurt so much for anyone before, not even Gabby.

The feeling of warm, tender fingers drying her tears made her realize she still was crying.

“Oh boy my world has changed

And I don’t think I can make it without you”

Present day.

“Alice, are you alright?”

Alice had been so deep in thought and out of it, that she couldn’t remember how she got to her yoga class. Or how she got out of bed or dressed, and what was more frightening, how did she drive up there?

A thump caressing one of her cheeks brought her back to reality.

“No, nothing’s the same

You got me running around

And running around

And running around”

“Um, yeah… I’m alright.”

Absentminded, still going over her thoughts, Alice looked at Helena‘s concerned face. Helena had become her friend, a good one at that. Something she didn’t thought would happen, as everyone else before, she didn’t like her after all the problems she had with Tina and Bette.

“You sure?”

And when she wanted, she could be such a sweet and wonderful lady.

“Nothing’s the same”

“Yes, Helena, I’m alright. Don’t worry.”

She took Helena‘s hand and gave it a tight squeeze to reassure her she was really alright, even though she’d been crying just moments before. Helena squeezed back just as tight.

“Ladies. Now, take a partner and position yourselves back to back.” Was the yoga teacher’s response to their talking and lack of attention.

“Baby, baby cause you

Got me running around

In circles over you”

Now things were different, way too different.

Alice didn’t know where she stood, her life had spun out of control. Her friends began taking sides, something she knew she shouldn’t be thinking, but that was the impression she got from their reaction towards her. And the fact that they where with Dana and Lara most of the time, when they were at the Planet, wasn’t helping.

Driving down the street, distractedly she listened to the lyrics of the song coming from the radio, a song she’d heard before. Making her think and reflect on her relationship with Dana.

But the only thing she could feel was the pain. Confused and more than angry at not knowing the real reasons of why it happened.

“(Running around in circles over you)

Over you”

“You’ve heard the song Circles by Mariah Carey on KCRW…”

A lone tear made its way down her face, before the rest could follow, she wiped it out angrily. She’d wait till getting home to cry alone.

All alone.

In the darkness of her room.