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Lifeline – Chapter 12
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“Nobody has a chance with me but you Bette.”
“I believe that, T. Deep down I do. But they don’t.”
“What they? You have to trust me.”
“I do trust you.”
“Do you know how confusing you are to me?”
“It’s just the way I feel. I try not to act on it, but sometimes it gets away from me before I can stop myself.”
“Bette, you know something? You’re the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning and most nights my last thoughts are of you before I fall asleep. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and reach for you, which would imply that you also inhabit my dreams. During the day who knows how many times you cross my mind? Dozens, if not more…”
A sound of muffled sniffling filled her ear.
“Baby…?”
“I love you T, and I don’t deserve you. I’m sorry I’m such an asshole.”
“Let’s not keep doing this to each other, okay?”
“I know you’d never act on it, and I know that your flirting is harmless. You’re the most gorgeous, smart, beguiling, sexy woman I’ve ever known Tina, and the fact that other people find you so attractive shouldn’t surprise me, and it doesn’t. You deserve the attention. I’m just selfish. But that’s my problem, not yours.”
“It hurts me Bette that you can’t just let me be me without thinking that it’s going to compromise us in some way. Can you understand that? I carry you with me wherever I am, whatever I’m doing. You’re in my heart, Bette. I don’t do anything in my life away from you that I wouldn’t do if you were there. I need you to believe that once and for all or… or…”
“T?”
“Or I don’t know if I can keep having these arguments over and over again,” she sighed, suddenly worn out.
“You’d leave me? Because I’m jealous?”
“It’s more than that Bette. You have to try to see that it’s much more than that.”
“But you’d leave me?”
Tina felt a lump swell in her throat upon hearing her wife’s choked question.
“No, baby. But something will be broken between us and I don’t want that. Do you?”
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Brilliant update. Thank you have missed this story.
Hey! I have been looking forward to the rest of that story! Thanks for posting again! I love the way you tell it all in flashbacks! Brilliant
Mercy sakes!!! that was hot and I know Bette thought so. I knew Tina felt when Bette arrived but I think she also saw her as well. Would love to know what Tina’s thoughts are when Bette mentions this song and argument to her. Getting their thoughts during this time is very interesting but I think I want Tina to wake up more than anything else. Very interesting way to tell the story. Thanks for posting.
Just finish reading chap 12, this is one of the most beautiful written love story of B&T, that I have read in a while. Even if we lost Tina, I don’t think we lose the love of these two amazing women. Thanks for the journey.
So glad to see a post from you, and such a great chapter! And so great to know you will never leave us hanging!
Hey, I’m still here, Nell. =) I was just rereading the chapter, savoring the words-the sounds, images and emotions they evoke-and gathering my thoughts. Loved it from start to finish, Nell. Excellently written as always. =) I smiled at the mention of the infamous TK eye roll, which drew a lot of flak from Tina/Laurel detractors back in the day, the cheeky tongue and touching pillow talk and the very nice “green-eyed monster-Tina seeing red” combo. I chuckled at the “door-slamming, window-rattling, foot-stomping and shoe-throwing” part of the lovers’ quarrels and LOL at this: “Of course, forgiving each other was probably half the reason they were so good at fighting. The make-up sex almost always started out tender and tentative and ended up sizzling hot, both of them desperately sorry for their actions and eager to reclaim their love by burning up the sheets for eight straight hours or until one of them lost consciousness. Even that didn’t necessarily stop the proceedings.” Woohoo! Loved this paragraph, Nell! But surely the couple can try a nonviolent yet equally exciting foreplay. Their house must have a good foundation to withstand and absorb such regular eruptions of fury. And their love and commitment to one another must be that deep and strong too to withstand and absorb such intense bouts of rage and insecurity. I loved Bette’s explanation of her song choices that will remind them both of the good, the bad and the ugly of their relationship. Bette’s grounded and brave enough not to gloss over their fights, the hard part of their otherwise lovely marriage. So Bette has an insane jealous streak and Tina’s flirtatious and scary when she’s angry. I don’t think they loved each other less because of the other’s imperfections. I must say I also love the way you picture Bette and Tina as equal partners in almost every measure: beauty, hotness, intelligence and professional success. Thank God Tina’s not a damsel in distress here or a weakling who’s so lucky the Alpha Bette picked her among her throngs of admirers.BR>
To quote the great Sting, this story is a “surprising novelty,” Nell, so please write it as you please. I trust you and I know you have a plan. I know you’re not prolonging the couple’s agony just because you want to or you have no idea where to take this story yet. I’m sure you know what you’re doing and I trust you. Tina is slowly getting better and Bette is learning how to cope and not losing hope. I know you’ll put them out of their misery, in a good way, someday soon. I can’t wait to read Tina’s take on Bette’s tongue teasing talk, her song selection and that fateful fight. Hope she can give Bette a sort of reassurance by twitching her finger, raising her eyebrow or smirking a bit in the next few chapters. I think Bette and their friends will rejoice at any slight movement from Tina. That’s all I’m hoping for. A thousand times thank you, Nell, and Happy V-Day to you too! =)
I love the way you write these characters. They both have fiery hot temperaments but they also both have a fierce loyalty to each other and such deep love and respect for each other. I love reading this story.
So happy to see another chapter of your great story! I just love your Bette and Tina – the truth and complexity of their relationship, the passion and humour, their heartstopping overwhelming love for each other, and not to forget Tina’s expert display of flirting after her swim! – you are a brilliant writer, Nell. Thank you!
I love it!!! Thank you PPVS
I miss Tina. Hopefully, this will work and Tina will begin to wake up.
This is such a wonderful story and the writing is superb. I love the story please, please don’t leave us hanging much longer. I check everyday for a new chapter.
OMG you write this so well…please keep posting…this story is so amazing….
I am torn here. I don’t know if I prefer Tina to wake up soon or take her time so that we get more of the flashbacks-the story actually.
Really enjoying your Tina. Will enjoy her even more when she comes out of her coma. (At least I hope I will… :- ) Great writing, as usual!
So, so great! Thank you.
Thats awesome, love it. Please post more, thanks!
Thanks for posting. I’ve missed this story. B&T are so hot, even when they fight, there is so much passion.
FUCK… what a chapter… i would love to be able to read tina’s thoughts… pps