As soon as their bodies and minds came back into reality, Tina got up immediately and showered, crying the whole time while Bette just stared at the ceiling, with her hand up to her face. How could this be over? How could this just end? Why was I so weak to give in to my ***** libido!!

Tina was in the shower and realized that this might be the last time she would ever be with Bette, perhaps the last time she wanted to be. God, why did it have to be like that? Why couldnt I just talk to her? Why did I have to make her ***** me? I need to get out of here

Bette got off the bed and went to the kitchen to have another glass of water, trying to build the distance between the two. She wandered out to the pool, sitting in one of the chairs and staring up at the night sky. What are you doing out here? You should be in there, with her, showing her you love her do I? Do I want to go back in there, she is so upset and I dont think my presence is going to help at all I cant do it. With that thought, Bette decided she didnt like who she was, and needed to change back to a person she was when she can actually remember being happy. She started taking off her pants, her underwear and bra and jumped in the pool swimming toward the other end.

Tina had just gotten out of the shower when she heard the splash. God, I need to get out of this place She went to the empty bedroom and grabbed her backpack and put as many clothes in it as she could find for the next couple of days. It took her a good 15 minutes to get ready to leave, the whole time wondering where Bette was and what she was doing. When she was finally ready, she headed out of the bedroom and scanned the house for her. Then she recognized the splashing in the pool, knowing that Bette had done it, she was trying to forget.

Tina knew what swimming like that meant for Bette, only seeing such drive in her when she was trying to out swim the thoughts of Kit and her addiction five years ago. It was shortly after they bought the house together, Bette had kept Kit away from Tina and away from her life. Kit was trying harder to get in contact with Bette, making her feel guilty for not being there for her and not supporting her sister in her career, relationships and living a happier life than her sister. No matter what Tina would do to try to get Bette to talk to Kit, she would never entertain the idea. It wasnt until Kit started coming to the house, interrupting their private lives did Bette start swimming, to try to forget about Kit and her troubles. Tina remembered that time as being very good for the two of them, and she knew that whenever Bette would swim all evening, it wasnt because of her, but because of Kit.

Tonight, Tina also knew Bette was not swimming because of her, but she was swimming to get away from herself. She walked over to the back door and watched the woman she loved try to swim harder and faster than she was capable of. Then she realized that Bette was in there naked, knowing that Bette had never been in the pool like that, except for when they first moved in. Memories clouded Tinas mind, and she knew she had to get out of there as fast as possible.

Bette needed to take another break, the fourth one so far, knowing she needed to keep going, keep forgetting reality as long as Tina was there. She heard the slam of a car door and saw the headlights in the driveway. Tina was leaving. Well, now you have to start facing reality and what happened. You should call her tomorrow and see if you can have lunch together, try to talk about things. *****, she wont want to see me. Maybe Alice will know what to do tomorrow.

Tina went driving, not to Alices, not to Kits, no where in particular. She ended up at the beach, parking the car and headed toward the beach, walking along a boardwalk, thinking about nothing in particular but trying not to think about tonight.