Angelica slammed the door of her room, ran over to her bed and burried herself in the pillows while the tears ran down her face. Mostly, they were tears of anger. The words of her mother still rang in her ears:

"Don’t you think that for once you should set your priorities straight and start learning?!"

Angelica snorted. ‘Easy for you to say,’ she thought angrily, ‘You’re happy, you’re married, you don’t have to deal with math or school or…finding love.’

Angelica shook her head at that last thought. ‘I’m never gonna find anyone…’ she thought sadly.

She found it hard trying to understand what was going on with her. She did not know why she could not focus on such banal things as her homwork; there were just too many other things going on in her mind. And she felt misunderstood by her mothers. It seemed like all they really cared about was school and Angelica’s grades. She witnessed the easy relationship they had with her younger siblings, Melvin and Sarah, there was never much trouble with them and Angelica found herself being jealous of them for that.

The ringing of her cell phone interrupted Angelica’s thoughts.

Alex was calling again. Being reminded that she still had to cancel on him, Angelica picked up her cell and answered.

"Hey."

"Hey, Angel!" she heard him say, "Please, tell me you can come!"

"I’m afraid not." Angelica sighed.

"On, no, baby!" Alex sounded pretty disappointed, "Damn, I was really looking forward to spending the evening with you…"

"Yeah, me too." Angelica lied, "Still, my mom won’t let me go, so…I wish you a wonderful party and…tell your guests, I said hi."

"I will," Alex said, "Well, we’ll have to make up for this some other night of this week, right? And then it’s just gonna be the two of us…"

Angelica’s heart sank. "Uhm…we’ll see. Love you, bye."

She quickly hang up before he could say another word, staring at her cell phone in shock. ‘Crap, now what am I gonna do?!’ she thought desperately. She had never been alone with him outside school, so now she was terrified that he would want to do more than just kissing and holding hands.

"God, I am so screwed!" Angelica said loudly to herself.