Bette woke up before their alarm.  She looked over at the blonde beauty and smiled.  Bette had had a nightmare of her birth mother again and was more frequent in the past few days.  She had tear stains on her cheeks.  Waking up next to Tina made it easier to cope with the horror of what she couldn’t  see and longed for of her birth parents.  ‘A fucking picture or health record would have been nice!’  Bette’s demons of who and where she came had always haunted her.  Her parents loving and understanding, just didn’t quite know how to handle the questions or the know all of how to react.  As Bette was in deep thought, Tina stirred feeling her lover was in distress.

“Bette?  You alright babe?”  Tina turned around stroked Bette’s face.  Bette jumped at Tina’s touch.

“What? Yea, I am fine.  Why?”  “Bette you look like you were crying.  Are you sure?”  Bette battled for a moment, how much did she want Tina to know about her birth parents or lack thereof and how they haunted her all the time?  Tina could tell by the look on Bette’s face that it was serious the battle in Bette’s head.  “T, I Just had a nightmare I am fine.”  Tina felt guilty for the comment.  “Babe was it the movie?  Shit sorry, I know horror movies aren’t for everyone, just the women and the story..I thought it was a good movie, besides scary….plus….”  Tina saw tears in Bette’s eyes.  “Bette, oh god, baby….”  Bette pulled away from Tina, putting up a one finger signal to give her a second.  Bette tried to say what she had dreamed about and feared of Tina’s reaction. 

Tina thought that it must so agonizing not knowing info about your life and just go along with what you got.  She pulled Bette in close and cooed and soothed her sobs down a bit.  “Baby I am here, it’s ok.  How awful for you.  I am here, you let go.  I will hold you.”  Bette let out more sobs.  It felt so good to trust someone and be needed, that is Bette always wanted, to be needed and not judged.  Bette knew that some of the stuff that she went through can sound like crazy talk, but with Tina, she took with ease and patience.  Something Bette needed and heard in Tina’s voice and touch. 

“I don’t talk about this usually, it’s usually the scaring off topic.  I understand if you want to leave, its hard to comprehend.”  Bette said this confidence and fear and hoping that Tina was different, which of course she was.  Tina lifted Bette’s chin and kissed Bette on her lips softly.  “Bette, of course I am here and want to be there and help you find answers.”  Bette so surprised by the words and love, she began to cry more.  It was a relief and a tension release for Bette.  Tina just held Bette tighter and whispered loving thoughts to her.  After a bit Bette looked up..”Fuck babe, work..ugh.”  “Babe I called in sick when you passed out again.”  Tina pushed away a hair on Bette’s face.  “Oh..well I am the owner of my gallery.  Let me call James and tell him I am out as well.  Want to go to the beach?”  Tina nodded as she got up to jump in the shower.  “Call James, quick shower and beach, ok?  Don’t forget tonight is your debut as a soccer player.  We need to get you cleats and stuff.”  Bette gulped, ‘Great she didn’t forget.  Of course not, soccer is her life..fuck Porter!’  Bette was worried that she would suck, worse Tina would be emabarassed of her.

“Bette, you will be fine tonight and if anything, you will improve with time and practice!” 

“What makes you think I will need practice eh?”  Bette was kind of talking shit, so she didn’t want to push her luck here.   “Uh, ok, we will see right?”  Tina laughed.  “Yes, babe and either way I love you.”  Bette was sure of the love…but her soccer skills?